Ep #110: Finding your Divine Self

There is a severed head goddess, abundance, love, signs, fasting, weight loss, manifestation, shedding the ego self...and so much more...
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Hey heart singers. I wanted to catch you before you head into that episode. I know everybody is always looking for a way to jump in and get started and actually take action. And I've got two things coming up that you can jump in right now. And you know those goals, whether it's freedom from food, more abundance, joy, happiness in your life,

pursuing those things. First up, we have a free fasting challenge in the Heartsing podcast community, which was key on my path of freedom from food. And I'm sharing all my favorite resources and you will have access to that eternally. So I'll hop in there. The second is my abundance circles. Now I'm on this quest to make a million dollars after I've lost the hundred 30 pounds and created the business,

all of that. Now we're gonna make a million dollars and I'm taking you with me. Head over to Addie beal.com and you can get more information there. Enjoy the episode. Do you know that there is something magical inside of you but you don't know how to uncover it? The Heartsing Podcast is dedicated to just that helping you put yourself first and figure out what lights you up.

I'm your host Addie, B aka Slayer Namaslayer. And through my journey of losing nearly a hundred pounds, uncovering the magic of my soul and building the life of my dreams, I'm leaving no stone unturned in the process of self-discovery and I'm here to share it all with you. So let's get started. Heartsing as you badass magical witches and bitches, you welcome back to the fa.

It's so great to have you hearing me again. I was gonna say see you, but obviously that doesn't work on a podcast. So well YouTube, great to see you guys. All right, my loves. So this week, oh my gosh, first of all, I can't tell you how many times this week I've thought as I'm manifesting the next version of my life.

Of course I've thought, Oh my God, this is my life. Like I still can't believe I've created this life. As I'm lying up on the mountain on a rock this week creating reels, I thought, you know what? This is my job. I created this out of me sitting there talking to all of you, live on Facebook, daring to say,

You know what? I'm gonna get an RV and go travel the country and light you witches and bitches up. And everyone was like, Yeah, do it. What the hell? And I was like, Alright, well what would happen? And I've gotta tell you as I'm manifesting this next version of me, and that's back when we were also losing weight.

Remember that? And you guys knew to the podcast I was, I had only lost about 40 pounds or so on my 120 pounds Now Quest, right? So I started sharing right at the beginning because I've always been so inspired by before and afters. And my goal of this podcast is to inspire you on your quest, to give you a nugget from my nuggets that maybe will make you think,

Oh, you know what? Let me look into that. Or you know, she did it. Maybe I can do it. Because believe me, four years ago I was sitting there like, Oh my God, this is what my life's come to. I'm just like working day to day, like pay taxes, pay the bills, eat, drink some more,

get bigger and bigger and just, you know, ultimately I should have been happy because I had all the things and the great job and the family and all of those things. But I was like in going in this decline into this ball of misery as I called it. Anyhow, fast forward current day here, you know, to really show what is possible now and to push myself.

Because in doing that, and part of me showing up here is the accountability of showing up and saying, Okay, here's what I'm going through. And half the time it's hard and uncomfortable. Even making this podcast today felt uncomfortable this morning I said, You know what? I'm just gonna pull a card and we're gonna see what comes out of it and I'm gonna let that inspire the podcast today.

The card we pulled for today is the Chinos card. And I don't know if I'm saying that correctly in the Sanskrit and the Hindu spirituality world or not, but this is a card of radical self-transcendence. So I'm gonna read this card to you and then I wanna share to you how does it goes in alignment with what we're gonna talk about today and the radical transformation that can go on when you dare to say what if and what if I can create,

What if I do that crazy thing? And the difference between wanting and believing and how we can do both and maybe balance both a little bit using these laws of the universe and starting to test 'em for ourselves, right? Like become your own investigator. Like don't take for granted what I'm saying or what the next guru down the street is saying. Yeah,

I kind of called myself a guru there, huh? You know, you don't take for granted what these people out there you hear are saying, you test it for yourself. That's how you get anywhere is by taking action and figuring out for yourself. And if you get the knowledge to have with the experience, then you become wise. If you're just having the experience,

this is why just like doing a diet that doesn't mean anything to you, doesn't take cuz you don't understand what it's doing to your body. I'm also headed into a 72 hour fast. So that's another thing we'll probably like dive in a little bit on this podcast. So we've got a lot to talk about. We're gonna talk about manifesting a million dollars fasting goddess of radical self-transcendence,

chopping your head off and standing on the sexual people. Kundalini rising of all kinds of magical shit today. You guys buckle your seat belts. Okay, so let me read to you, this is from Sahara Rose's Yoga Path deck, which until I have my deck created, which is in the works, we are using Sahara Rose. Cuz I, I love her deck,

I really do. It's great. I will probably always use this even when I have my own, I'll mix it up. Okay, so you are waking up and experiencing the radical pleasures of letting go, which if you've known my words of the year, the past few years, you'd be like, oh, this year was surrender. The year before was allow like,

because that's been my thing is needing to just let go, releasing this ego self, getting the ego out of the way so I can work from this divine part of me that I found once I stopped shoving my face full food. Okay? So Chima, the headless goddess has come to guide you in this massive state of transformation as you turn passion into spiritual energy.

Kundalini primal energy is rising and you've given up a role you once carried to step up more fully into your power. Don't feel fear in this state of transition to Mata's gift is to transmute the darkest of times into the most powerful of energies, carry her fierceness as you tear off a former head, you once had an experienced inner peace that comes with being divinely yourself.

Oh totally you guys, this is coming throughout this whole abundance part of the quest and my weight loss quest is being affected as I'm seeking this money goal, like squashing my limiting beliefs around money and how that's created and what that means as far as energy in the universe. I wanted to like put the passion in my words there because I know you can't see the card listening to the podcast.

So I'm gonna give you a visual. So this goddess is normally pictured naked and she's got a ring of like skulls on a necklace around her neck and she's got a sort in one hand and her hat is chopped off and then she's got two of her attendance or servants there that both have swords as well and they are drinking the blood that is coming from her neck that is also going into her severed head.

Gruesome, yes. Awesome. Also, so the story behind this myth, I love learning about this mythology. All of this stuff is so fun and the lessons in it are really trans, like just inspiring, right? I know it really doesn't sound like it, but it it can be. And I love doing this self reflection. What does this mean to me today?

What could this mean to the podcast today? This is the goddess Poverty is where this goddess was birthed from, okay? And so poverty goes out to the river, one of the famous stories around it, she goes out to the river, slices her head off because she gets in the river and has this sexual energy comes up and turns into stone. So she chops her head off because her attendance get hungry and this part got a little confusing for me,

but the blood spurts from her and it's feeding her attendance and feeding herself from this primal energy that was within her. And the head is symbol symbolic of the ego self of all these attachments to the world around us and where versus the spiritual self, right? So she just like completely chopping that, letting go of, and this got us in particular is about the sexual energy and you guys have heard of cini yoga,

you know, doing this practice with the breath work and stuff, which funny enough, I'm going to on Saturday and I didn't have it booked until I pulled this cart. I had it picked out but I didn't have it fully booked. And I've been saying, I know this is on my path and this yoga studio I went to and went to a gong bath this week also on my everyday adventure list on this path.

And I went there, this there this week and now I'm getting just for me all of these signs to step forward into this place. And I have to laugh cuz my friend Jenny is sending me all these little memes and gifts and YouTube videos about people seeing signs everywhere. And it's so true in this one YouTube video, you guys is so funny. This guy's like,

I don't wanna go in the party. All those weird people seeing sign, they think everything's a sign, they think. And I was like, oh my god, that's so me. I'm like, oh, that's a sign, that's a sign. But the thing is, once you know, and once you're open to the fact that there are doors and windows in sync,

those synchronicities are there for a reason. You don't mi you try to not miss them, right? Like if I keep, if I'm aware they're around me all the time. It's like they say with the thing like the law of attraction, right? If you say something like, I wanna see a purple car, like something that isn't a common thing you would see,

all of a sudden you're gonna start seeing them everywhere. And the idea is that it's all out there in the universe. We're just not looking for it. And that as soon as you put it out there that it's something you desire and something you want, that you start to see it, okay, oh my gosh, where was I going with that?

How do I pause everywhere? Okay, hang in there here with me you guys, I promise I'm gonna bring it home for you, right? We're gonna, we're gonna leave here inspired to take some action to create something magical in your world. So we're going through this process and I, I told you last week about the circle, I was called to start the abundant circle and I was calling it Addie's abundant circle and now it's called the Witches and Bitches abundance circle,

which is a whole story in itself. But long story short, it's a heroin's journey that I'm on, not a hero's quest. And Addie's abundance circle was very hero's quest. That's a very solo sounding adventure. And I don't want a solo adventure. I wanna gather my people, I wanna gather my badass witchy bees that are ready to manifest at this level of what can I create?

And being open to the possibilities and daring to ask what if. So anyhow, just in changing that name, it's shifted everything and we're already starting to have some, so things happen in there that I'm noticing for myself personally, that are in line with what this card is saying about this being divinely yourself. When I first started sharing, I would go up to the mountain and I would just be like,

oh my gosh, my heart was ripping open. Like as I was awakening, feeling this connection. And by awakening you guys, I mean spiritual soul awakening. I get a lot of questions about things like this now. So I'm gonna try to be a little more descriptive about my body and what I'm experiencing and frequencies, things like that as I go.

Because I think some people feel like, oh, with the magic pages, for example, this came up recently because I'll talk about my pen just being taken over. Like I will, you know, my, my spirit will talk through my pen often, like when I get in flow, it's like, it feels like it's not me writing. It's,

it's a transcendent experience and not everyone will have that in writing, right? You might have this experience happen in meditation, you might be have a visual experience, you might just have this deep knowing. We can all experience it different ways, but also it's not every time I sit down to write my morning pages, my three pages, that it's magic every day.

Some days I'm just showing up to do the task, to do the habit because I know that on the other side of that my brain's gonna be cleaner, it's gonna be more cleaned out than it was at the beginning. And sometimes they get in flow that way. Sometimes they get in flow through my meditation, sometimes it's through my planning and my habit stacks.

Sometimes it's through being in the mountain in nature and sometimes it doesn't happen. And I only know this through experimenting and trying for myself to see what is working for me to uncover what's inside. And it's changed this entire journey. So this is your quest, right? It's a, but I wanna do it together. I wanna do it with other people.

So therefore the witches and bitches abundance circle, which is open to everybody, it's open, you guys come join us, jump in and you are welcome Addie beale.com. So this month in November, if you're listening real time, get in now I've got a free call Friday at noon and Sunday at five Pacific. And that's all I'm gonna say here on this podcast about it other than I wanna share with you because we're talking about big goals and I had a couple people reach out to me because they wanna make up financial goal.

That's not necessary. You can abundantly channel something else. I just happen to be working on money and these people have been on the weight loss cla quest and making plans and I think are ready for that next step into, you know, let me manifest some money too. Why not? But yet figuring out, okay, what does that number for mean?

And I'm like, you know, it's really about the freedom of it. And then as I get talking, this is the part where I get being divinely yourself, where I feel I care right now where I feel my spirit come and just start to speak when I know I'm talking or speaking in the manner I'm supposed to be speaking. And it's like I feel that energy come through me.

And when I would first go up to the mountain and I would first share with all of you what I'm experiencing in my body, oh my God, this Heartsing, you've gotta do this. It's just like freaking mindblowing shit. This is how I'm feeling about everything again. And it's like, yes, you're ignited, you're un this, this is the path.

It's like full blazed. Yes, yes, yes. It's this radical self-transcendence. It's this next level of stepping into divinely means speaking my truth in authentic self and soul. And not that I haven't been authentically speaking my truth here I have, but it's this igniting, this spiritual leader from within me. So to where I'm talking about what I heard from Abraham this week,

I had just put on the law of attraction, it was on, it's in my audible books and I thought, you know, I'll just see where I left off cuz I knew I was listening to segment intention, which a lot of my planners based around this concept of being intentional about your day, of like having an intention when you walk into each moment getting better and better at that.

Because we start it not being intentional at all. You might think you are, but like once we get into it, like being intentional to where you see it, feel it in your body before it even happens. So that we're grateful ahead of time for that occurring. And so as I'm listening to Abraham this week, what really jumped out and stuck at me and I've talked about over and over,

and it is what this is about in the nugget I really want you to take with you today is about wanting and believing because I do a lot of work in my MEfirst guide, in my planner about believing my new thought and rewiring my old self to my new self. Like what is that old belief that I wanna dispel or displace with my new belief?

And you know, if I can speed that up, something my spirit guide said between last time I saw you and this time I'm seeing you, when I went to see Renee last week, they said timelines are really important and you can absolutely speed up your timeline. And that's part of what happened with this new moon is speeding up the timeline. And so I thought,

okay, well how do I go about speeding up the timeline? Well, I am going to manifest like hell on this new moon, which is a, to set intentions and manifest what you want in this world, right? So I, I go into this new moon with all of these intentions set and I'm headed in and I'm thinking, speeding up the timeline.

I'm gonna wrap around you, the Abraham thing, I promise I'm gonna loop it in here with this. There's just so much to share that I wanna share the experience with you too. So maybe it'll help solidify it with the story. So I'm, I'm like, I'm gonna manifest this so I can like really move up this timeline, but how do I move this timeline up?

So I go to this gong bath and I'm like transcended in this gong bath. I'm like immediately connected to energy. And when I say energy, you guys, it's like a feeling my body gets a light with energy, like kind of like a Christmas tree right from the inside. But this takes practice and everybody's capable of it. You're capable of it.

But even sometimes now I'll feel like I have so many layers, it's harder to connect with those layers. Like when I'm not eating clean, when I'm not, when I'm drinking things, when I'm like stressed, really stressed about work and not just being and being still, it's, it's harder for me to connect sometimes. Sometimes I can still snap myself back in pretty easily,

but sometimes it's a little more difficult. But I went into this new moon gong bath, just really excited to just allow myself to experience and be and be open and see what would wash over. And these vibrations just walked over, washed over me. And I've been practicing this, right? And the Kundalini energy, which is what this card is about that we pulled today,

this serpent energy, this taking your sexual energy and pulling it up through your body to your head, transcending your head and out. And these energy centers are real things, you guys, This isn't like mythical magical mystical shit. It's sci, it's science, right? You can, they can see energy centers, they can measure it, they can measure the energy out from your,

your body, from your heart center, six to eight feet when your heart and heart coherence when you're in radiance, you know? So this isn't something that is all witchy woo woo anymore, right? We can prove it. So in learning how to ignite these energy centers, part of what we're gonna be doing in this group is like, okay, how do we connect with that center like today's practice?

And the magic I did was about connecting with the heart center and I thought, oh good, when we do this exercise, I'll just go pop in the group and show everybody how I connect with that energy center. Just do a quick little video. And it's like sharing things like that in real time as we're experiencing them. That really helps you learn and gather as you go.

So, oh gosh, you know, squirrel Slayer, but they're all like, so it all goes together. Do you see? Okay, so I'm manifesting cuz the guide said, Hey, you can speed up your timeline. And I'm like, okay, so, and when we're talking about the timelines you guys like, so they say in the multiverse,

there's different timelines we can travel on. And you know that in some universe right now there's already million dollar Addie out there. All I've gotta do is dial into that frequency like a radio dial, right? Like I can just flip into that frequency of million dollar Addie or 162 pound Addie or whatever that might be. How does she feel in act now?

That's the frequency. The frequency is the emotion. So we know that the emotion of money, the vibration of money is gratitude. Like, just be grateful for all those things. You want all that money, you want all of those things. Be grateful for like truly just grateful, full of all joy. Wonder if I can feel in my body about millionaire Addie,

how I feel about my life right now, about this life I've created that I'm like, my God, I can't believe this is my life. That's the feeling that awe, when I sit and truly think about, holy crap, I did that. That's the feeling. I'm feeling. Oh my god, I made a million dollars, right? So that's the feeling,

that's the frequency. So I wanna speed up that timeline. I wanna bring her here sooner just because I do, right? Like how, how do I do that? That sounds like fun, doesn't it? Okay, so we're gonna speed it up. So then I get to Abraham and I'm like, okay, there's some nugget in here. And we're talking about the wanting and believing because I'm,

I'm rewiring my thoughts, I'm working on that new thought. Oh my god, I created a million dollars, right? Like this is nuts. Isn't crazy. That's the thought. And I let all the bullshit thoughts come up when I say that like, well you couldn't possibly do that because xyz, right? Whatever thought crap thoughts are still buried under there about money or about my lack of ability or self worth,

self confidence, whatever those thoughts are, I let 'em come up and then I rewire them. I reframe them about, hey, you are divine. You are the magic. Now what are you talking about? This is beautiful, you know, we're beautiful now. And I rewire it and then I write a note from my future self. And this is part of our planner now of the MEfirst guide process.

So we're constantly every day rewiring that old self to the new self. But what Abraham says is this, and here's your nugget, you guys, Long story shorter, maybe not. So wanting and believing you can manifest through both of these, right? So if you believe something like completely law the universe as if you believe it, you're gonna bring it right?

But you can also want something you know, like attracts like, right? You desire it, you're gonna bring it. So, but here's the thing, you don't have to do these equally at the same time. And you will see this in your life, you will see examples of this in your life. You can believe something and not want it at all and still bring it to you,

right? So for illness for example, you can believe you're going to get it because hereditarily or whatever that deep belief is that you have that's under there, that you believe in this thing, even though you don't want it, right? And the not wanting of it, sometimes often we bring it to us more because we're thinking about what we don't want more than we're thinking about what we want,

which is health and longevity. If you spend more time thinking about what you don't want, you're gonna bring that which you don't want as well. So you have that way or you can also want something so badly that you don't quite believe it and bring it to you. And here's the point of today's episode, I'm like, oh my God, that's what I did.

I wanted this life of freedom. I wanted to be in an RV traveling the country, running my own business, like living this life of freedom, thinner, healthier, like shining radiator from mountains and and creeks and lakes and rivers and whatever. I like wanted this whole experience so much more than I even ever believed it. I never believed I would be sitting here telling you this.

I never believed it ever really, truly. I thought, well what if, what if I just step forward and you know what's come up? Because I'm doing this same process right now. All of this law of attraction stuff. And I, I think about how I got to Hawaii back in 2003. I was doing a lot of Jack Handfield, I did a laddin factor and I would just listen to those tapes over and over and I would dream and I did vision boards and I would just write about it.

I remember putting my youngest on an airplane, Lexi to Michigan to go see my mom. I put her on the airplane and I remember I went to this coffee shop by the airport and I was just so sad. I was so sad about my life. And I sat there and wrote and I dreamt about what was the craziest amazing life I could want while I'd live in Hawaii.

And I wrote out this whole thing, I still have it. And guess what I, where I ended up in 2008, we packed up and just moved to Hawaii. It was like I put that in motion because I wanted it so badly. I didn't really believe I could live there. And the land of sand and palm trees, I even think I manifested my ex-husband who's Hawaiian,

right? Like, because I want, I was a Michigan girl that wanted to live on a beach with palm trees and then I manifested my house on the beach, right? All of these things. So why do I ever doubt I can't, I can create a million dollars. Of course you can. I just haven't yet told the universe what that looks like to me.

What is that experience? I've been grateful for it now. So figuring out how to be grateful now for what that is and to step into it. So as I'm creating this next version, I thought, so I'm looking up these, these homes and mountains and these things that million dollar Addie is as I'm making up these, these lists, oh my gosh,

I have so much to tell you about this too. So as I'm like looking to create this next version of myself, guess what's coming up in my newsfeed from 2019 when I was, I was in RVs. Like I remember making my friends Erin and Jay go with me, like, come look at RV's with me. They're like, all right, that sounds like fun.

So like we're all looking at RVs, I'm hanging off RVs, I'm pretending I'm driving 'em. I even went like to get one financed and ended up not doing that one. I ended up walking out. It just wasn't right. Thank goodness it was a huge old bus that like once I like went back and did my research, like that was just a no,

it was just wrong, you know? But, but the point is, I was, I was out there taking action so I thought, you know, I'm just kind of thinking of these things at making the vision boards, but I'm not given the action to show the universe that I know it's coming, that I'm grateful now for it. So I found apartments,

I'm like, oh my God, I found my dream place, my inner minute apartment home that the building I wanna be in, the location I wanna be in, They're available. I reached out, I'm like, Hey, I wanna go take a look at this apartment, right? Like I'm like, why not? Like go check it out. You never know what the universe is gonna bring you.

It's never gonna look like you think it's going to look ever, ever, ever. And so when you are setting that big, crazy impossible goal, when you are daring to step into that next best thing of all you have to do is be grateful. Now for that thing, whether it's health or a home or a, a thinner body, freedom from food,

whatever that is, figure out what that frequency is. What would that motion be in your body there? And that's how we bring it to us. We stay in that vibration more and more. And that's the trick you guys. So this this work I call it, but it's not work. It's joyous like this. These gratitude practices we're doing with this book,

The magic that we're gonna do in the witches and bitches circle in November is that like this is the work. If you don't come join the circle, get the book the magic and do it. The trick is doing it. And also like I'm really liking how I've been doing it kind of in this book club style with this other girl I found. And I'm gonna do that for this group,

right? Like I'm gonna go ahead and make it easy like audible bullet and we're gonna do that. I don't know if I'm gonna do that, everything going forward, but I'm really excited to do it for this cuz I'm lit up for this and this is what happens, right? Like I think I'm not gonna cultivate content and I end up doing it because it's just so fricking good.

I gotta make sure you guys know. It's like, and that's how I know I'm like in my divine element because it's, it's fun. I'm on fire, it's creation and it's exactly where I'm supposed to be and what I'm supposed to be doing. A couple other things that happened this week and then I'm gonna let you guys go. And I wanna talk about fasting really quick in our bodies too,

because that's also part of this radical self-transcendence, right? This for me, releasing my ego self when I set out on that food is fuel quest. And, but I've also had some other things happen from this manifestation. So one of the days you make this magic list, you write a list of things you would just magically like done for you. And I was like,

oh, you know what, it'd be great what I have on there. I would like my Hawaii trip book cuz I decided my future self. It remember in last week I shared my gratitude list where I see Mili six times a week. Well, and like, you know what? I have a be I even have enough miles to get a plane ticket.

Let me just get there and I'll figure out where I'm sleeping, even though I've gotta sleep with Mili in her bed, right? Like so what? So I'm like, I'm just gonna get the ticket, right? So I have this on there on my magic list, get Hawaii trip book. It's just be nice if that was done. So I go live to tell everyone about this experience I'm having with the magic list and all of this Millie's dad gets on there and I'm like,

Hey, I was gonna contact you because I'm gonna come out for my 50th birthday, which is over this Thanksgiving weekend. Thank you very much. I know, I know. I'm excited for the five. Oh I really, really am. Like there's nowhere I'd rather be at this stage in my life ever. Like I feel so good at 50 and I'm so grateful for everything I've created.

So I'm going there because I was like, where do I wanna be for my 50th? I'm like, I wanna squeeze my baby, right? I wanna squeeze my baby that's over there. Hell yeah, I do. And I'm missing the ina, I'm missing the land, I'm missing Hawaii. I know my body doesn't physically wanna live there, but I do love it there.

I love so much about Hawaii. So I'm gonna go and hold my baby and get my feet in the sand in the earth and reconnect for my 50th. And it's putting into motion that thing I did the day before the, the six time seeing Mili like it's happening. And this happened. You know, I know I'm a great manifester. I'll bring free trips to myself all the,

this whole entire time. And I haven't needed money, I haven't needed food, I haven't, I've taken off on this big entrepreneur adventure with like literally nothing but the, the shirt on my back and a bunch of badass witches and bitches behind me, right? But like literally not a whole lot and everything I've needed has just been provided the entire way.

And it's like, I know that part, but I wanna be able to show I'm creating X. You know? And that's what I'm sharing in this abundant circle, like the specifics of that. And I'm gonna bring some of that magic here to you guys on the podcast too. But there's so much all week that goes in each, each little day that I'm seeing all those magic stuff going on.

I'm like, I have somewhere to put it, like to con to contain it all. So like next year when we're like, How the hell did you do that? I'm gonna be like, it's all right there. Just go back through the feed. You know what I mean? And so I've created a hub, like a little website area to source some stuff cuz just like I did with my weight loss quest,

because you can go back and you can watch me lose 130 pounds failing my ass off if you want. It's all on Facebook, right? That whole thing. I've got videos saved. You can go back and you can see my face 80 pounds heavier than it is right now. And I was just sharing like, and it's just so different that things I deal with now,

but also so much the same. But you guys, I'm not some frigging unicorn, right? Like, you can do this too. You can create a million dollars if you want a million dollars. What is it you want? And what Abraham said this, I loved it. He said, Oh you humans, you think you don't want because you think you can't have.

I'm like, Yes, yes, yes. How many of us sit out there and say, Oh, I don't want, I don't need money. It's not about money for me. I don't need to be skinny. It's not about being skinny for me. It's because you think you can't frigging have it. Hello? Think you got wisdom from Abraham.

If you think think you can have that thing, then of course you say you want it. But the fact that you don't allow yourself to say you want it to allow yourself to dream that you want it is what's holding you back. Yes, yes, yes. And this is why I have a job. This is why like women come to me because we don't remember how to dream for ourselves.

We don't know how to want, We really have shoved that so far down that we just don't even know how to, what do I want? Okay, I don't know what I want, How do I uncover what I want? So I, I spent four years making an entire system because I didn't know how to do it either. And I had to pick up stuff from like all over the place.

Like I knew how to like do a vision board and like dream big. But then how do I put in action? How do I wake up every single day and take small action and fail and get back up? Like that just seemed impossible. I could start something and not finish. And then, so I had to learn about habits and oh my god,

meditation you guys, I didn't even get to talk about that. And the kini, the serpent rising. Oh man, okay, this is like 20 podcast content in one. I'm dropping on you guys this week and I realize that I'm gonna have to start breaking this out a little bit. Okay, so let's talk about fasting and the cini rising real quick.

Fasting. I'm going on a 72 hour fast. Again, we're doing this in the Heartsing podcast community, and I think we're deciding, and that's a free community, you guys, The fasting challenge is free. And I was talking to the young Jedi who is, she really likes to fast. She's down like 50 pounds on her journey. I, I like to use,

I found fasting later in my weight loss quest. And I really, I'm using it to cleanse my body. So good for gut health. My gut health lining came back a little shady on my bio test. So I'm really looking forward to this three day fast. And it's starting today after I get this podcast up and published and going through Sunday, and I've planned so much magical stuff this week.

So I've got a sound bath tomorrow night, Saturday I have a massage and condole yoga. So the kini yoga being like kini kundalini, how, I don't know how you wanna say it, but it's also what I experience when I go to like Dr. Joe meditation retreat. It's the same thing as pulling this energy up through your spinal area. And so as I learn more about the shock roses,

and I explain this in the MEfirst sisterhood, we had a, I do, I did a topic of the month and I really got into the chakras and there's two parallel systems in our bodies, and they cross over like this. And so, you know, one side as your masculine energy, one side your feminine energy and they cross through your body like the crossover.

You can't see me on the podcast, but like ss like snakes, right? And so like Dr. Joe would say on stage, it's like, it's, it's like a snake like energy, you know? And, and that's what kini, you'll always see a snake metaphor. And you know, like this says the serpent is rising with this card.

And this is because it's to the taking of that primal energy that some of the most powerful energy in your body, and it's bringing it up through your heart chakra, to your, to your penal gland, to your crown chakra as to where you open up to the doors of the universe. And when you feel this light and this energy in your body,

when you start to connect with these energy centers, which you start easily and effortlessly in meditation, in my opinion, like that was my first opening to a portal beyond my 3D ego self. And that's why I teach the sound meditation, because I think through a mantra based meditation, it helps you start to transcend and focus your mind because it gives you that focal point,

which is what it is. And so you can slip into the Diana, into the meditation. So through this kini, through rising and bringing up this primal energy into the brain, you are creating from, from this primal energy from within your body on like another level. It's like the tantric Hindu goddess is who this is, right? Like so, and in this picture of the Chinos card that we pulled the,

she's standing on the goddess of sexuality, you know, about, So she's conquered her sexuality and re you know, chopping her head off is the sign that, you know, she's over the ego. She's transcended that ego and she's feeding everyone with the blood of herself with the blood of, of the mother of like her pure blood. So, okay,

so much, right? So fasting cini, that's real quick. Maybe we'll do a little more on fasting next week. But just know that that information is all in the community, you guys. And just hop in there and head to the website. I'll always have more information over there for you, even if that gets outdated as the podcast goes on.

So, all right, my loves, I hope I wrapped that up and left you something to be inspired about. The big thing I wanted you to take with you today is wanting, you can just want something and not have to change your belief. So Abraham would tell you, don't even worry about the past, just let the past go. The problem is,

most of us humans can't do that, right? We're ruminating on the past over and over again, old victim mentality. Oh, this happened to me, this is why I'm the way I am. It's like, no, no, no, you can just say, I want this thing and you can want it so badly that it will bring it to you.

The universe will bring it to you. So what can you desire so badly? What does it look like? What does it feel like? Can you be grateful now for that thing you've yet to have? Right? Whether it is, you know, a physical thing, a spiritual thing, a health thing, whatever that thing is, the gratitude now is your vibration for,

that's the vibration of receiving something is gratitude. So focusing and practicing on gratitude and the wanting, allowing yourself to want and dream and desire something. All right? You got this my friends, Thanks for listening as always. Share my crazy with your friends. If you dare you badass witches and bitches at the very least come in the gathering circle and create some abundance in your life.

Dare to think you can. I promise you, you can. This is, it's the law of the universe. In fact, who are you to think you can't? I love how I was talking about that earlier, the Maryanne Williamson quote about it's the lightness that we fear the most, right? We're so apt to go to the darkness. And in reality,

if we are likeness, if we are divinity, if you do believe in God, the universe, life force energy, whatever you wanna call it, and that that's a part of what created you, who are you to think that you can't? Like what are you an abor anomaly of the laws of the universe, right? You're greater than the laws of the universe,

you know? And I'm like, No, of course not, right? Like that humbles you real quick, you know? So anyhow, take that little nugget with you because who are you to think you cannot and dare to think you can, dare to dream the impossible and be grateful now for whatever it is, because I promise you, you can do it.

It's, it might take some practice, it might take some figuring out what that looks like for you. But if you commit to this big, crazy impossible thing you want and you say, You know what, I'm just gonna try and I'm gonna promise myself to get up no matter what over and over again and see what happens. And let the universe surprise you.

Oh, magic in store, my friends. Just think you might be in a little RV travel in the country having left your job next year or whatever you want. All right? Until next week, which isn't bitches flare up, Which isn't bitches don't go anywhere yet. This is is a reminder to head over to Addie beal.com, A D D I e b all B E A l l.com,

and get your information for the free fasting challenge. We start the fasting timers on the 27th, but we are doing some fast leading up and some other cool stuff. You're gonna wanna jump in and at the very least get the resources and just kind of g gather some knowledge through hanging out and listening. Even if you're just fasting curious or you're a fasting guru,

jump in on this. It's fun, it's free, and why not? So that's one thing. And the other is Addie's Abundance circle. Listen, if you wanna be on this quest, you wanna do the magic with me, jump on in. I'm talking about a little bit more about the magic in this week's episode. October 22nd. October 21st. So if you're not listening real time,

you might wanna hop into that one. Have a listen and see if you wanna find out more about Addie's Abundant Circle, or again, hat over to Addie beal.com. I hope to see you on the inside. All right, let's light it up. Witches and bitches Slayer out again.