S3 Ep 174 Are You There God? It's Me, Addie: Embracing the Art of Being

"I woke up this morning, curled up in a ball and thought, "Dear God, please just help me." - Slayer In this heart-to-heart episode, Addie shares what the "Voice" said in return (it's earth shattering - ha!) and shares about the struggle to balance spiritual connection, personal growth, and fun.  Addie is getting all kinds of messages to just BE and not DO so much, but how the heck when life feels overwhelming? 

Living intentionality in daily actions,  the importance of self-care, fun, and planning become clearer. 

Filled with anecdotes, spiritual insights, and practical tips, this episode invites listeners to reconnect with their higher selves and embrace life's flow with ease and joy.

00:00 Introduction and Greetings

00:32 Reflecting on Overwhelm and Spiritual Guidance

01:47 The Importance of Being Present

05:39 Fun and Joy in Everyday Life

08:39 Intentional Living and Core Values

12:46 Practical Steps for Connection and Well-being

20:57 Conclusion and Final Thoughts

You are a human BEing, not a human DOing. 

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Addie B aka Slayer

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Hello my darling witches and bitches. How are you guys doing? I hope this finds you well and so much fun stuff to talk about today.  This is going to be a little bit of woo mixed with a little bit of overwhelm. And oh my God, do you guys remember that book? Of course you do. Are you there God?

It's me, Margaret. This episode is, are you there God? It's me, Addie. It's Slayer. I'm here. I think there's been a few times in my life that I can remember just being like, Oh, I just can't do it. Just help me. Help me. And one of them was that 2017, 300 pound ball of misery where I just, like, Turned it over and I first time heard the little voice that I will just call my soul that Whisper inside that tiny little voice that we're too busy shoving our faces our eyes our ears to hear Deep inside of us and I have been getting all kinds of messages this week to stop and be and listen While I'm going a million miles at work and everything else in my life You That feels impossible.

And I know how simple it is. So I kind of want to talk through this today because I know a hundred percent that I'm not alone. At least probably half of you out there feel this every time I say something about like, just be, or anytime I go to see my spirit guides and they're always like, just be, just relax, just chill.

It's all good. You don't have to do, do, do so much. And I'm like, whatever spirit guides you try being in my life. And they just roll their eyes and we have this whole moment. So I don't know what made me think of this. Are you there? God, it's me, Margaret. But I was like, you know, there's times in your life where I think you just have to turn it over.

And there's been such there's been a thought that's been so comforting to me this past year and a half as I've been  like moving my life forward in a way trying to get back in alignment. I'm not going to say get back into being who I used to be because there's always an evolving version of us. And I think what worked for me in 2018, Might not work for me in 2024.

And in fact, I'm pretty sure it hasn't because it's I'm my weights going in the other direction And to me, that's a reflection of it's almost a direct reflection of me Not listening to my spirit like not being still enough to give enough space to let this greatness come through this radiance that rocks the world and when I start numbing that I get bigger and my spirit like gets clamped inside more.

I know this is going to sound nuts to you guys, but I always said it was like in that 300 pound ball of misery. My soul was in there just banging on the walls. Like, listen, listen, listen. And I was too busy doing all the things. And now that I know this, I'm like, okay, I keep trying to move myself. Out of the way and then things keep shifting in my life and I have to keep adjusting again Just when I think i'm getting traction and i'm getting back to i'm like, okay i'm in the space I can hear i'm getting to The beach i'm open.

Oh And then i'll have something happen health wise or a schedule change or my job's changed three times You know, it's like i'm in a whole new world at work and it's taking a lot more time and energy to which I wanted because I knew I wasn't engaged in life because I wasn't engaged there. So this is a good move, but it's affecting everything else going on.

And with the uncertainty in the world, I know we're all feeling this, this, this. energy right now and just this thought of it's so much bigger than myself and I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be because I'm there. I'm exactly the weight I'm supposed to be because I am. I'm eating the things I'm supposed to eat because I am.

All of those things just allowing myself to be not,  um, I don't want to say it's not like not in judgment of it. I still, I want to change it. Yeah. But that I add, it's all right, you're doing everything you're supposed to be doing. This is the exact path you're supposed to be on. There's a lesson coming.

Just keep getting up and trying for the goal you want. And this is where it gets complicated, right? Because for a lot of appearance sake, my goal is weight loss. And I don't mean appearance like, uh, how I look. I mean, uh, If you hear and watch everything I do, and I do set that goal. I have the weight goal.

It's a number, but it also reflects, like I just said, so much more to me spiritually. Does this sound crazy? Like I'm the opposite about the scale is most people. Like it's not a judgment of self or my body or what I'm doing. It's a reflection of how connected I am to my highest self. And two things happened this week. 

First up, I drew the Rajas card and I drew it reversed in this is from my yogic pack path deck by Sahara Rose. And in this, Explanation of the card and it's it's this is a card about energy. It was you are What it's saying there. It said you are a human being not a human doing That's right. Mic drop that bad boy.

You guys you're a human being not a human doing so this morning I sat and as I was writing and really Thinking about these things, how do I get back to this greater connection of myself? And I wrote all the things that I do that I feel like I be like, that's where I just am. If I go sit in the earth, if I walk the beach, if I float in the water, if I swim, if I journal, if I meditate, if I even plan and future self dream, all of these things are me being.

Like me, um, my mom used to say, Oh, you're glorifying God when I'd be out there swimming, right? When I, when I play a sport, when I engage physically in this world with just pure childlike joy. And then I got writing, I'm like, Ad, where's the fun? You know, my core values, you guys, right? Love, inspiration, authenticity, joy, uh, fun.

Did I say fun enough? There's five of them, but let's just say fun. I'm like, where is the fun? There's so much getting up and doing, doing, doing, and Am I being intentional enough with how am I going to get the fun in? And I've really been bringing this to work, like really trying to change some of the culture around me just through how I'm experiencing it.

Like let's make this, let's have some fun. fun while we're at work, you know, put the rental car top down and crank the tunes like  have some fun while we're at it. You know what I mean? Like we take ourselves so seriously. And this is one of the things one of my favorite meditation instructors used to say at the Chopra center.

He's like, you guys, you know what enlightenment means. It means to lighten up, stop taking yourself so seriously, like just be, we're here to play and have fun. And what if we took that view of life? What if everything that felt so heavy and so serious, and that makes me want to say, God, are you there? It's me, Addie, help.

What if all of that is? Just, yeah, step aside and just have some fun and play. What if you knew this was all just so temporary and that you were just here to have fun, to have a good time, to create adventures? How does that change life and what does it look like? By the way, you guys. Did you realize I only have like 933 days to I did a podcast not too long ago feels like yesterday to me About a thousand days this next future self dreaming of mine.

I'm like, oh my gosh 100 days have almost passed already And how's my runway looking like what am I building toward that future self that i'm creating? And so much fun Right. This is just a blip in time. It's a wiggle in the universe. And what can I create for in the space I'm in? And how can I make it more fun?

So my intention this week is fun. I get everywhere. Where can I pull in some fun? And if you don't know your core values, I have a good podcast on that that helps guide you. And the book Buddha and the Badass is really good for that. There's some great stuff in there. But identifying those things that are truly important to you so you can see when you're feeling disconnected from your highest self, when you're feeling out of alignment and just not connected to that something greater, whether you call it God, the universe, spirit, humankind, mankind, spirit, kind, whatever you want to call it, like to look at your core values and be like, Hey, where am I not be living in alignment in this zone of genius?

Right? Like, how can I do that more? And then things will inevitably shift. So I'm shooting for some fun this week, some gratitude. I was looking for a podcast to inspire me this morning and I couldn't find ones. And when that happens, I always listen to myself.  So I played what I call Russian roulette with my podcast wheels.

So, uh, you know, rather than spinning the barrel of a gun, it's spinning the dial on my Mazda. So it goes down the podcast list. And I, so I went to my podcast and I'm like, okay, I'm going to let it do the stop and pause me thing twice. It has a safety feature, which sometimes drives me nuts. But today I used it for podcast roulette.

And so I let it scroll a couple times and I ended up on podcast 120 and it was about exactly this. It was about being disconnected from my highest self and it was autumn again. I think I did it right after the new year. I had gained a little bit of weight. This is in 2023. And I was just like reflecting on how, when I feel so connected to the universe, to everything around me, to nature, to myself, to my, my my practices, that everything just feels so good and easy and in flow.

And when I'm not feeling so connected, it all feels so friggin hard. It feels like get on my knees, help me God, right? Like, are you there? Are you listening? Because I can't listen to myself right now. And sometimes we just have to hand it over with whatever your beliefs are, you know, I've gone through this whole. 

discovery phase with  the universe, God with that energy. And it really happened for me like this whole change in awakening, understanding the difference between religion and spirituality, and actually, you know, I like to say touching that space inside of me, but you, you bitches got your heads in the gutter.

So that's not a good thing to say.  Feeling the energy, that life force energy that comes alive in my heart center and all of my chakras. And as I. It developed my practice of experiencing energy more that place just feeling so good and I'm like, why don't they just teach us that because it's that connection like I know in those moments where I'm existing in this energy field, I know it's so much bigger than me and how do I carry that belief that energy that throughout my day just that ultimate joy and gratitude and no matter how I'm feeling, it's.

When I touch that space, it's like, it's like the best orgasm ever, right? But it's not one. Okay. Wow. Man, boy, I'm jacking up this podcast.  Are you there? God. It's me, Addie.  Good God, you guys.  Oh, what else happened this week? So that's just a few things. So episode 120 about the higher self and the connection, uh, was really good from a standpoint as at a couple of years ago.

And again, talking about the connection with weight loss and my spiritual connection that can also look as simple as just saying me first. It's as simple as putting myself first, uh, taking the time to do my magic morning pages and journal. I always meditate in the morning. That always happens. But what about those afternoon lunch break meditations?

We had a couple of weeks here where I've been meditating with the group and a few of us that have been showing up and that's been really great. I love it when I schedule it like that because guess what, if I say I'm going to do it live and I'm open in the zoom room, I gotta be there. And then I get my meditation in, right?

And it's like, it's so much more fun together. Oh, you know what else I did today? You guys, I downloaded a walking app that just has a really simple walk routine. I just need to move my body. I'm sitting in a car, I'm sitting at a desk, my hips hurt. I haven't been getting to as much yoga as I was, which I want to change that coming up here too.

So a lot of, uh, Eyes on things I want to change, but also awareness of not stepping into overwhelm with all of it. Like add, you're exactly where you're supposed to be. So my friend, if you're feeling any of this energy, you're exactly where you're supposed to be too. And if you're lighting it up, ride it.

You are exactly where you're supposed to be. Because isn't that what life is? It's these ebbs and flows, ups and downs. And it's how we navigate the downtimes or the ebbs that I think, you know, uh, separates the badasses from the lame os. You know what I'm saying? Don't be a lame o.  You got to just plan to fail and get up every time you do.

It's that simple. That is the badassery. Just getting back up over and over again. We were talking about this in my coaching group this morning about just being and not being so worried about food or worried about weight loss or the things. And I'm like, yes, but also I want you to hear here in just. for myself in my mind.

And if this thought helps any of you guys out there, I'm not  worried about it, but I'm also not giving myself this grace or whatever. I mean, the thought is I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be. So that's a calming thought. Wonderful thought. But also, where do I want to go? And what are the small actions I can take to get there because doing the same thing over and over again is just like beating your head into the wall.

So if you're not going to take action, if you're not going to step in the direction and show the universe what you want, you'll get the same thing over and over again. So if we're just going to be and not do anything. Make sure it's filled with those things that fuel your soul. Like, what is your list of being?

Because I guarantee you it's not watching Netflix, right? And now that we can't have those days, that was my day yesterday, right? It was like all day, just vegging out with Netflix. But I can tell you what I feel Like a million bucks after being to the beach, doing my walk, writing my pages, doing all of that versus lying in bed, watching Netflix all day or on the couch or wherever.

It's just such a difference. So I would just say the  caveat to the just being is being intentional with it. And if you have a busy life, if you have a lot going on, Like if we're waking up at, we have a teacher that was on the Facebook live with me and she's like, I'm up at four and I don't stop until six and she's like, I'm just exhausted.

I miss movement in the morning, but I don't know when I'm going to get it in. I'm like, look, sister, you're moving all day. Like you just got to figure out. What are those things that move the dial for you? And if movement is one, maybe you cut something else a little bit shorter, but this doesn't happen without us thinking intentionally and planning and looking at habits all the stuff we do in the me first things because I always have to laugh because Every time like even when I go see my spirit guides but like all the people I talk to we we everyone goes to see where Renee and Laura and they're all like Oh, my god Hey, you just don't tell Addy this but you need to just do nothing and just be and I'm like, well, that's great If you have a life where you can just be I have to schedule my being  That's my only argument.

I agree. I need to be more but in order to be more I I have to plan more. The more I plan, the more I'm able to experience my best, fullest, happiest life and getting myself in that routine again. I'm like  70 percent there on my planning right now. Like my weekly plan is sort of dialed in. My food is absolutely not like I need a stronger food prep.

I'm like 70 Regimen getting all of that in alignment will just help make everything else so much easier It's like having the same clothes you wear every day. How easy is that when you have a uniform? You just go put it on you don't even have to think about it. There's not brain power going anywhere It's like your house being organized.

You just know where everything is It's the same thing with life. I mean, if you don't have this uber flexible, and you might be retired in the day is your oyster, and maybe you're just able to flow like that. But if you're in a period of life like this teacher is, that is, it feels like.  I just don't have time for everything I want to do.

You have to decide what those things are that are your being things, not your doing things, and look at your schedule and be like, how can I get more of that? Where can I put more of that in so I can do what my spirit guides are telling me to do? Right? Like, yeah, I think that's great. I want to do it too, but I can't call in sick for like two weeks.

I am By the way, I want to use my PTO for like being with my girls or, um, off on some big adventure, right? So, what is, what does that look like when time has changed like that and time being our most valuable asset in, The one that we don't know how much of it we have, ever. Like we never know how much more of it is coming.

So, just kind of some fun food for thought for this week. So, do this for yourself, you guys. Um, just write down pure and just simple and easy. What are the things that make you feel like you're being? Maybe it's putting your feet on the rock. Like the young Jedi's got this rock in her backyard. And she'll put her cute little painted toes on this rock.

I know she's being. When she's there. I know when I see her feet there that she is being, you know, maybe you're hugging trees. Maybe you're dancing. This came up on my live today. Everybody this week has wanted to be like, just dance to a fun song. Maybe that's you being just letting it shake cranking the music.

You know, what does it look like when you just be make a list of it. And when you schedule your week, and if you don't schedule your week, yeah.  If you just kind of live with the flow, try to be intentional with your being. Be like, okay, I'm going with the flow. But this week I'm gonna try to dance crazy to a song and I'm gonna hug a tree and I'm gonna put my feet in the earth and I'm gonna just Do a five minute meditation timer.

I go. What are all those fun things that you could put in Your everyday life that would help you be more. I am going to work on Mine, which doesn't sound fun when I say work on I am gonna blow some shit up. That sounds much more fun  my meditation and my magic pages and moving my body, getting to a couple of yoga classes.

Millie and I are walking the lazy river, but we're also adding in gym time and I enjoy being physical. I enjoy. When I get there, who else is with me? Like once you get there, you're like, yeah, I dig this, right? I like lifting weights. I like doing those things. And again, it's the getting there. So that's my week, you guys. 

Are you there, God? It's me Addie. That's how I started my morning when I woke up and I was just like, oh, like, I just, just felt so heavy. And I was like in this little ball. And I was just like, help me, God, please help me. And the voice, the voice that comes when I say that, just said, just get up, get to the beach.

It's all good. Just get up. And I got up and here we are. I'm making steps forward and it doesn't feel so ball of misery anymore. So thanks for listening you guys and I appreciate everyone that's reached out. I feel like lately in the podcast, I hope I'm not depressing you guys. I've had a couple messages saying it sounds like you just need a hug sister and you're goddamn right I need some hugs.

Send me hugs. Send me some love on the podcast, share it with your friends, whatever. I think it helps us all to know we're not alone. And hopefully you found some inspiration for yourself in here. And until next week, witches and bitches, I'll see you then. Slayer out.