S3 Ep 194 2030 Addie: How to Design Your Rich, Free, Abundant AF Future Self

In this episode, I’m taking you inside my vision for 2030 Addie—57-year-old me who’s strong, free, and living her rich, abundant AF life. We’re talking what wealth really feels like, why freedom is my ultimate currency, and how you can start building your future self now, no matter what your current circumstances look like.

You’ll walk away knowing how to:

• Get crystal-clear on what your future self actually looks and feels like
• Define your personal version of wealth and abundance (beyond just money)
• Find ways to live those abundant feelings now, so you draw them closer
• Turn big, dreamy visions into simple daily actions that create real results

This isn’t just my story—it’s a framework you can use to stop drifting and start intentionally creating the life you want to wake up to in 5 years.

💭 Ask yourself:

1. What does my future self look like in detail?
2. How does she feel when she wakes up each morning?
3. What does wealth and abundance mean to me specifically?
4. Which of those feelings can I start creating today, without waiting?
5. What’s one decision I could make this week that my future self will thank me for?

I’m also giving you the inside scoop on our upcoming MEfirst Guide live event in Phoenix, September 20, 2025—a small, powerful gathering for visioning, dreaming, and creating your next-level life. If you’ve ever wanted a day that could be the catalyst for the rest of your life… this is it.

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 What's up, witches and bitches. I'm back. I made it to the microphone this week. It is Monday morning and I'm pre-work, but I'm like, oh my gosh, Addie, you have to show up. You've gotta start showing up for yourself and the things you wanna do, and I'm trying to figure out how to do that and fit it in time.

And so I'm really making Einstein time today. And if you don't know what I'm talking about, episode 19 on here, I get in the. Deep about Einstein time and it's, uh, you know, the, the theory that time is all relative, right? We create the time. It isn't linear. And it is amazing when you put this into practice.

If you just don't look at the clock and you keep your vibrations high and you just know you're making it how you arrive places when there's no way in hell you should be able to get there. Like it would take me an hour to get there, and I was there in 20 minutes in our time. But in Einstein time. I'm there like whenever.

So anyhow, I am like, I didn't get to the podcast yesterday and there's so much I've been wanting to share with you over the last couple of weeks. I've had a lot of, I don't know if it's this Lionsgate portal or coming out of the retrograde, although I think there's still some planets in retrograde or something like that going on out there, you guys.

But I don't know. I feel this energy shift and I see it even in my kids, like in what they're doing in their lives. And I am trying to grab and ride this train. I'm getting really excited for planning the in-person Phoenix Me First guide event. If you are anywhere near Phoenix or can get there, we are going to have so much fun and I just am like.

I want this to be a time for us to come together and dream and plan and bond. And this is like when you meet the people that are your tribe. If you've listened to my voice at all, if you're here listening to this podcast, you are one of us. Like you show up and you meet these women's and and women's women, and you're just lifelong friends.

It's the six degrees of Addie. I'm telling you, it's always been this way that my friends and my friends. Or friends, right? And they're great friends until this day. So come be one of the friends, but even more so I'm getting excited. I'm like, well, you know, I'm gonna hang out. So I found like a reasonable hotel.

I was looking at this resort and I'm like, you know, who wants to spend 600 bucks? We're doing like a, a kind of like a conference thing, right? We've, I've rented. Now I've even rented. We, um, were manifested this clubhouse of Amy's, which is gorgeous, and we're going to set up there and vision and dream. I've really been working on this future self nidra, uh, yoga nidra meditation that I'm excited and to bring some other tools in, but also for us to brainstorm as a collective obstacles and dreams.

And it's just going to be. So much fun. So if you need some clarity in your future self, and this is what I've wanted to share with you because I've been really, really trying to get clear on this future self version of my of me, because if there's anything I've learned over these past seven to eight years is that I absolutely create every result I'm ending up in and I'm creating that future me and if I want it.

If I wanna be living this most spectacular life now, what does it look like? What specifically do I want? The universe is just trying to figure it out. It's just throwing shit at me because I'm not clear. And clarity is the key to all of it, right? And when you get down to it, when I'm like, okay, what is.

2030 Addie look like. What does, what things am I doing in that time? What do my kids look like? What have I created in the world? When I get in that nitty gritty, it can feel hard to sit down and iron it out and really allow that dream to become. More of a reality versus a feeling, and so a lot of times when I start my future self vision, it's very cloudy.

It's just an emotion. It's definitely this feeling of freedom. That's what it is for me. Like this. Just freedom. And you know, I've been thinking about this a lot lately too. You guys, I remember I was asking just out on Facebook, on my page, you know, what is the one thing you really, truly want as far as you know, your body and weight loss?

Because this is usually how people find me because of the, you know, weight loss and finally doing that and achieving that goal. And what we really want. To be free of it, to just not care and to live our best lives. And not not care, though. I think there's a difference here. I was writing about this this morning about how I think there's a difference in living life at a with abandon and just.

Doing everything you wanna do and having so much fun. I think I did that for so much of my life. I never let my weight stop me. My size, stop me, money, stop me. Any of that, stop me. I was always really good at having fun and creating and getting out there and doing the things, but there's a big difference in that.

Living intentionally, intentionally creating who I wanna be and how I wanna show up. And when it all comes down to it, it's how do I wanna serve, you know, and not coming from this place. I've said this over and over again, um, like feeling guilty about not serving at the homeless shelters or, um, you know, doing things like that where I'm like, um, giving service to the community.

But sometimes you're. Service comes in another way. You are helping others. And what I've found is usually in helping yourself, you reveal that service to yourself. It comes through it. And for me, it's been doing this like helping women dream big again and step out beyond what they thought was possible for themselves in creating this community where we come together and rise up against the.

Against all the things that we were taught from society that are the right things to do, and how at this stage in our lives heading into our fifties, sixties, seventies, wherever you're at, or maybe you're 30 or 40, right? My daughter does this shit like wherever you're at, like during to dream big and that we can create and we can.

Be so much more, and we don't have to be in these boxes. Society has put us in what a mom looks like, what a wife looks like, what retirement looks like, what does it, what do you want it to look like, and often in pursuit of your highest self. This will just be unveiled. One of my clients is working on this right now.

She has historically just. Such a great visioner and dream big and we've just, I feel like everyone's been in this energy where that's kind of been a little stifled this last year, year and a half, and she was really struggling with that vision. And when it got down to it, it's just like going back to focusing on her and getting her bicep.

Tight and you know, like really getting back into just really taking care of herself. And it's funny how when we focus on that part, the rest of it unfolds. And I'm sitting here writing and writing because the scale isn't moving in the direction I want it to, but I also just cannot get myself to care.

And I'm like, add, when are you going to get yourself to care there? And that. That world of what is going on in your body that I'm gonna care enough to get my food prep and my food ready and all of these things. I just want it to be easy. And it feels like none of that's easy. Like I'm pulled in so many different directions, but I will fucking get there.

You guys watch me. So I sent in my Viome test, which is a gut health test. If you have not. Gotten into gut health, looked at your gut health, highly recommend this. And, um, the time I have felt the best in my life was when I was eating to my biome. I could literally feel my body process the food, and it was such a rewarding thing that it made me keep showing up for that.

So I told Millie, I said, it's. Soon as I get my super foods, 'cause they give you lists of foods with this OME program. And so as soon as I get that list of super foods, it's just going in a big ass bowl in the refrigerator and I'm eating it with everything. Like literally anything I make, I just put the superfood mix with it like my foods.

And this makes so much sense, right? This is why. If I can eat something and lose weight or process it well, and you can do the same and it not work for you because we have different microbiomes, we've jacked them up differently is what's happened. 'cause we all have jacked up microbiomes living with all these chemicals and everything that's been done to our food and don't get me started.

Okay? So I got that going on. I got my ome coming back. I finally have all these supplements and if I haven't updated you on my skin lately, it's 'cause it's not miserable because I am finally feeling. Better. And some of this, I'm in a different allergy season two, which feels really good, but it's also, I don't, all of this mold detoxing and all of that I've got going on, um, is really helping and I wanna dial the food in to help accelerate that a little bit too.

But, um, yeah, more on that, you guys. So this thought about, you know, it's not about. Being happy when, when you get the body, when you get the money, when you get the career, when you get the whatever it is about the now, right? Being happy and excited and living our big lives now no matter what. And how do we do that if it's really all just.

Thoughts, feelings, action. If we're the spiritual being, having this physical experience, if this is a game, doesn't that just take some of the, the heaviness out of it? The heaviness out of the, being heavy, if you will, right? Like this is an experience I've wanted to have for some reason, for what? I'm going to become in pursuit of the goal, whether that goal is my health or creating a business or, um, you know, having financial freedom, whatever those goals might be for you.

And we have this pyramid of life that they're in all different segments, right? And I think there's different times where we're highly focused in different areas. And this illusion of balance, we need to throw out the door, right? There's sometimes where you're gonna be all in at work, you gotta double down and it feels like you're letting your house slip a little bit, your family's slipping, and then sometimes you're all in on your family and then your health is falling through and like, isn't this just the dance of figuring out what is most important to us and how do we make it as simple as possible to achieve some sort of balance?

And how do we just have some fucking fun, right? I see myself getting so like, you know, fun is my middle name if you haven't met me, right? Addie fun, Beal Levinson. Elli like bring it on. But also I see myself get stuck in the getting so serious about shit, lighten up. We're spiritual beings having a human experience, you know, I love that thought.

Kind of shifts it. So I wanna share with you guys today how I. Have been future self dreaming and after doing that visioning book and learning about all the different kinds of visioning that I've shared with you on the past few episodes or so, understanding that. I can create this vision in so many different ways.

Right? And I got thinking, I was listening to the Life Coach School podcast, which I always love with Brooke Castillo. And she said something like Episode 533, she announces, I'm at every episode, right? And I was like, oh my God, who am I going to be when I've made 533 podcast episodes? How many years would that even take?

Like what can I create in that time that I'm showing up to this microphone every week and sharing what I've learned for the week and how I'm moving forward? Oh my gosh. Even if I move forward, one little tiny percent, 533 episodes of me learning and moving forward and daring to dream. Who dare I become?

And if we create what we dare to dream and think, like why not keep putting it out there and doing this for yourself? Right? So this is what I did this past couple of weeks, you guys, I've been thinking about five year Addie 2030 Addie, if you will. And what does she look like? She's 57 years old. Right. And she's 155 pounds.

She's at her goal weight. She is in this space where she has just figured it out and it's just freedom from food that was almost just like a, just a, a, a non um, a. Just is. It just is, if you will. Right. I think she's very strong too. Like, so I went to CrossFit with Millie yesterday or Saturday. I can't believe I forgot to tell you guys this and holy shit, you guys, I can hardly sit on the toilet.

I forgot about the squat. So Millie's signing up. I think I might join her in a couple of months. I've got a lot of stuff going on at work. The schedule isn't. Great. I think ultimately I can try to work it in once I get through my coaching stuff, but, um, anyhow, uh, yeah, she's strong. She needs to get back to that.

Maybe some Olympic weightlifting. I love shit like that. I'm very strong and I wanna keep my muscles. I did notice when I got skinny this last time, how much harder it was. As far as muscle goes, like right now, if I think about it, I'm, I'm pushing up like a hundred pounds every time I do a Chaturanga at yoga.

Right? Like, what the fuck? That's a, a lot. I'm so strong, you know? So anyhow, she's super strong too. And if you think about it, at t by 2030, I'll have done 2090 day plans. Probably 2090 day planning events. I haven't not done an event in 90 days for the 90 day planning, whether I think I had missed one and that quarter was a catastrophe, so I haven't missed another one.

And I'm like, I have to do it with all of you. And then also sometimes by myself on the side to really get this vision clear and move it forward. So 20 of these, I'm gonna have 20 of these where I've sat in intentionally. Thought about future me and what actions need to be taken and what does she look like, and overcoming obstacles and thinking of ways to get around it and what new things am I gonna find.

What new things is the universe gonna put right in front of my face in these next five years that I can't even imagine yet? Right? So I'm envisioning the outcome and then there's gonna be all these windows and doors that open along the way that I'm gonna take on this path, right? Like, think of all the things just since I've been here in Hawaii.

Yoga teacher training, I mean. Coaching certificate I did. Uh, fast like a girl coaching. I feel I've just done so much learning in the past couple of years. Right. And learning about health and my body, but also just experiencing Ben's so much fun, right? Think about this. Millie will be 21 and my youngest, she's a junior right now, and she'll be in college.

This is just crazy, right? And um, Lexi will be. 36 and I've decided my vision. She's found love. She really wants a partner and I think she's getting to the stage where she's thinking, you know, maybe I will do a baby. You know, like after being anti baby her whole life. So for sure I, you know, grand babies will be coming.

She'll have her cute little house she wants with her pool or whatever that looks like. You know, the podcast, you guys, I'll have 260 more episodes of this. And this really got me thinking of what do I want season four of this to look like? I feel like I'm coming to the end of this era where. Oh God, I feel like I'm been a whiny bitch as I'm trying to rise up this time.

You know, like how can I be more intentional with my whiny bitch in this? I thought I'm gonna go ba back to past Addie. So what I'm gonna do is I'm gonna take some of my favorite episodes from the beginning and I'm gonna listen to him that had the big lessons from like the Big Leap. Atomic habits, creating your alter ego.

I'm gonna go back and listen to them now as me now, who's learned even so much more. And when I was in the middle of my spiritual awakening, like when you first come out, the other side of that, you are shooting rainbows out your ass butterflies are all around you. And then sometimes life comes in and finding that vibration because you wanna stay there.

And when you're there, you feel like you're never gonna lose it. Ever. Right? And you come out the other side and this is why they say, never say ever. Never. Right. So I think for season four of this podcast, I'm working on this 'cause I really wanna take it to YouTube too. I am going to listen to my past self and spoof on it as my current self and even go back to some of those learning tools and say, what newer learning moments can we take from those?

I thought that'd be a really fun way. And that came outta me thinking, oh my god. 260 more. I'm currently at like almost 200 episodes. I'm still not even to Brooke Castillo's 533 episodes, right? Who can we become in 260 more episodes? You guys will you still be li here? Will you still wanna listen to Slayer?

Like, will we be here together five years from now in 2030 being like, holy shit, look what we've all created. I want you guys to write this down this week. What do you wanna create? And in 2030, let's come back here to the podcast, look at this episode and say, okay, what do we create out of this? How did our lives actually turn out?

I see financial freedom and I don't know why, like a million dollars. Spells financial freedom. To me, when I look at, when I think about that, I just laugh because I'm like, it's not tangible. You know what I mean? So I'm like, what does this really look like? You know? And to me it's about being able to do whatever I want, whenever I want it.

And do I necessarily need a million dollars to do that? No. You guys know I lived in a frigging Reagan in the middle of nowhere for, although that was more expensive than living in a frigging apartment. Ooh. So anyhow, you guys, um, having a, I've never bought anything and, um, partially because, well, no, so mostly because it terrifies me because, you know, my freedom thing, the only thing I ever bought had wheels.

Like, I get terrified. My kids like. It's this Sagittarius, Saturn's rising in all these moons bullshit. Like I am just like, my soul, like doesn't like to feel like she's not free for whatever reason. And so I just have not purchased, but I think future Addie. It does have a cute little condo, downtown Phoenix or somewhere like that, that is home base while she's traveling all over.

And I got really specific about the places I wanted to travel, and I think for the first, I decided for, um, 2025 and 26. I'm here in Hawaii, 27, I'm gonna end up in Arizona. And then 28 looks like, um. Spain, then, uh, or Portugal, Scotland, um, London. And then, um, just kind of be in some places where I can sprout off to some other places, but be in those core.

Pl, um, areas that really have interested me from watching other people travel over there because yours truly has not made it yet. And now I live all the way over here on the other side of the world. So there you go. Um, so travel is big, but that is gonna be living travel, right? I wanna be able to. Be just creating community and coaching and me first and helping others achieve the greatness in their lives.

And as coaches, this is what we do, right? Like we focus on a goal and we help our clients get to a goal. And I, this is why I'm such a big believer in coaches. I've hired like 10 coaches over the past. You know, seven years for different things, for things in my business or things personally. And I think next year, I think I talked about this last year, I was going to hire a, um, like weight loss mindset coach.

And I didn't do that this year because I ended up at the naturopath and holy shit, did all my money go to the naturopath, but I really needed to. Right? It was like, I was just like, I have to figure my skin out, you know, fuck the fat man. I just wanna feel good in my skin and I feel like I'm. Coming out the other side of being able to manage that and the flare ups and all of that.

So that's exciting. And to get back into that a little bit and get more in my mindset on that and the focus on that. My podcast is on YouTube. I think I do events all over the place. I love this, like this September event I'm so excited about just to really just hang and be with everybody. Yeah. We're gonna get shit done too, because.

I, I like to get shit done. I don't wanna go somewhere and not get some shit done. If I do, then I'm gonna go to a spa retreat or something like that, right? Like this is a self-development workshop. Like you should leave here feeling very inspired about your future self. And if you haven't, then I've failed and I wanna know how and why.

So I can get better next time, but I haven't failed yet, so, you know, I'm just kidding. It can always get better. So give me your feedback. Always. My friends, always. Oh my God, I hope you guys come. It's gonna be so much fun. It's gonna be a small room, right? So get your ticket, book your seat. I wanted to share this also with future self Addie.

So those are kind of like just the basics, the logistics that I know about, right? Like kids, family, I'm like, do I have a partner? I don't know why. I just don't see this. Is this this hormonal shit? I told Millie or Lexi? Now that I'm on. Hormones. I'm like, I hope I don't start getting like horny or something again, because that's a pain in the ass.

I'm like, it's really great being free. I'm like, I just want to hang out with my girlfriends and build bonfires and shoot the shit and talk about big dreams and create and have some frigging fun, right? Like that's what I want to do. Let's go. Let's go. Canoeing and kayaking and get massages and like, I don't know, like ha.

Just have some frigging fun. So the other thing that came up, I'm doing this Louis Howes book and it's kind of in alignment with this 2030 Addie and it's a money book. I'm doing this in my book club Bitches with Francesca Amber, and it's called, um, make Money Easy. And so part of what you do is you write down what does wealth.

Look like for you, what does abundance look like for you? Because it's different for everybody. So putting a dollar amount on something that you like, you can't even necessarily put a dollar amount on a sunrise over the ocean, right? I can go make that happen every single day. Is that how I feel? Abundant.

And it is, by the way, like when I am in rooms with views. I feel very abundant. It doesn't necessarily even matter what the room looks like, but it does help. But if I'm overlooking some vista or like have this great expanse, I just feel so frigging abundant. I remember being on the top of the sand dunes in Oregon and my heart just swelling with abundance just over.

Like brought to my knees in the wonder of the universe abundance. That is abundance. Like, oh my God, I'm just so fucking grateful. It's just so much. And none of this. Look, none of this has to do with money, right? The money part of it is the freedom to do the thing sometimes. Right. Where else have I felt abundant?

I feel abundant staying at really nice hotels. I love like luxury linen and bedding. All of that feels really good. I love being weighted on. I love room service feels abundant. Don't ask me why. It just does like having people serve me. Feels so good. A personal chef feels abundant and definitely a necessity for 2030.

Addie, she needs a person. We just need someone to make the food for us already because then that would just be super fucking easy, wouldn't it? Right? Like just cook the food for me. And um, when I look back in my weight loss journey and all of that, just really having my food prep in alignment and knowing what I was going to eat and then seeing myself show up for it or not, that was where the work.

Was right, but like having the food ready. Half the battle for sure. Um, what else, how else do you guys feel abundant? What feels rich to you? You know, like to me just being able to hop on a plane and go wherever I want or buy my kids what they want, be able to help Lexi with the down payment for her home or car, that would feel really abundant to me not have to worry about helping Millie with her college education.

It just all being taken care of so she could just focus on school that would be really fucking abundant. Right? Like on and on and on. And what does it specifically look like for you to just feel abundant and then how do we feel that way now? Right. Like if I wake up, like I feel abundant when I go to the pool and when I walk in the, I'm in the water in the.

Sun hits my face, abundance, you know, like start looking throughout your day for all those little things that you're like, my God, I just, this just makes me feel so. Blessed and free. And you know, isn't that what wealth is like? Wealth is this overwhelming gratitude and abundance and joy, right? If it isn't that right, and money is just the vibration of that in our world.

So it's interesting shifting my mind because my mind. Well start to reject that thought, right? Like that, oh, that can't be possible because there's some negative aspect to money, right? And I know I still have money blocks to work. So like doing all these money books and seeing like some of that resistance to that statement of money being the symbol of this feeling of abundance, right?

Oh, well no it isn't. Love is or whatever this is. But what if the more love in. Joy and gratitude that you put in the world, the more the money flows to you. Which is what the truth of that is, right? But I have resistance to that and why it stops and why can't hang onto it, right? Like as far as hanging onto that abundance.

So I just thought these are really interesting things and so I think as I'm building this 2030 Addie that is going to. Own her condo. Right. And have a cute little car there. I think we should have a little car there. Maybe a paddleboard to go paddleboard the river with Amy when I'm there and do the little, little moonlight, paddle on the Salt River and have a place I come home to amidst my traveling around the world and lighten some witches and bitches up at events all over.

I'll fun. Would that be. Maybe I just travel and do 90 day events everywhere and share the planner and create all the processes that go behind it in like to help others get up every single day and have this framework to create this next version of you where you keep stepping forward and you keep dreaming because isn't the magic and the fun in the dream, it's in the journey to get to the thing.

So how do we. Live these big fantastic lives now, no matter the fat, the career, the family, all the things, right? Because we all know the happiness isn't there when you get the thing. It's not about the fat. It isn't about the money. It isn't about those things. It's about living in the now and being joyful now.

And the me first guide is what? Like this process. Does that for me every single day. And I know it has for others too. So, but it is a process, right? And it's like one of those things that is just so, and I think it's, it's different for everybody. That's why there's so many different aspects to it and how you can use it differently too.

But anyhow, I digress. That is 2030 Addie, and I'm so proud of myself for showing up to the mic this week. Alright, you guys, give me a shout out. If you heard this, share it with a friend and I sure as hell hope to see your asses in Phoenix, September 20th, 2025 if you're around. And if you are listening later date, um, every quarter, man, we gotta do a 90 day plan.

So, um, listen for it, watch for it, but by all means. Don't just sit there and say, you're gonna wait for the next one because it starts now. What if this is the one decision that changes the trajectory of your life? This is how I do most things. I'm like, what if this is the thing I learn? And sometimes it'll be one little tiny thing I learn in that big thing I took that gives me that paradigm shift that changes.

Everything and becomes the catalyst to this transformation that's beyond my wildest dreams. Alright, witches and bitches. Go dream big. Write down what wealth looks like for you. What are those things that just make you feel so fucking good? What are those things? Get 'em written down. Who are you in 2030?

What does she look like? How does she feel? What is she doing? Get it all out there. Love you guys. Slay her out.