S3 Ep 205: Becoming Her: Manifestation in Real Time

Once I decided to quit my job, the wheels were in motion.  This week I’m talking about what happens after the leap — when you stop chasing, stop overthinking the hows, and start believing it’s already happening.

We’ll dive into:
 💫 Why belief is the decision as well
💫 How my Human Design (Generator 2/4 Hermit-Opportunist) helps me understand my creative cycles
💫 What a Harvard Professor of Happiness taught me about how tech affects our happiness
💫 And how I’m creating my virtual world of badass witches and bitches living in alignment and abundance

This one’s for every woman ready to stop waiting for the perfect time and start living her next chapter today.

Believe. Become. Be.
And go slay your damn day, badass B. 

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Transcript

 I'm so excited. And I just can't hide it. I think we're gonna close quarter four with me giving you my theme song of the week every time I get on the mic. So I am feeling so pumped you guys. It's like once I made that decision to leave everything else like nothing else matter. Like just propelled everything else forward.

Like what if you just decide and don't worry about the how's? What if you just say, you know what, I'm doing this and I'm gonna trust that the universe is gonna lay it out before me. It was really interesting. I had posted on. TikTok about this card I had gotten and it was what it was all about. Oh my gosh.

Opportunities are opening and don't worry, you're just in the right place. And you know, of course one of the comments on there was, well, how are you gonna take care of your girls? And I'm like, well, you just watch and find out. I have never. Had a panic about like that I wouldn't be provided for, you know, I, I like with money and stuff like that, I just have always had this knowing that it'd be taken care of.

Where I'm working with money is like my money mindset stuff and restriction is around having more than enough. Being in abundance, like that's where I'm headed next. So if you want abundance, buckle up buttercup. Let's go because we're on that ride together. Right? So anyhow, back to this part of deciding, you know, so last week, if you're following along, or if you're new here.

I quit my job and this has been a long time coming. If I look back, I've just really have tried to be in alignment with working in this position and it's just one huge sign after another that this is not what you're supposed to be doing right now, but the timing. Wasn't right until now. I even like quickly made an appointment with my spirit guides to make sure it wasn't just me, because as I'm learning more about my human design, which I find fascinating, you guys, if you haven't dove in that yet, I found a cool app.

It's called Stella. It has the whole human design thing in there, and I hired a human design coach for setting my business up. I'm gonna meet with her because I learning this about myself because so much of it makes. Sense in human design. I am a generator two, four, and what the two and the four stands for is like I'm this hermit opportunist, so I'm like an enigma even to myself.

I am like one moment I'm shy and reclusive, and the next moment I'm bold and outspoken. Which is probably why if you've been following me for a while, it can get so confusing, right? And I'm like, oh my God, this makes so much sense. There's times I just need to hibernate and I need to hermit. Is that a word?

I need to be a hermit. I need to go in the cave. And while I think we all have this. Within us, just seasonally, right? If you get into understanding about the seasons. So with the two four hermit opportunists, knowing this about myself and this, I just love learning new shit. Can you tell, I know that's why you half you guys show up or you're like, what am I gonna, what's she doing today?

Well. Today it's human design. And also you might want to download the Stella app 'cause this stuff is really interesting. You do need to know your time, location, and date of birth. And then, so if you don't know your time, if it doesn't sound like you just keep guessing in like two hour intervals until it sounds like you, 'cause I guess the time is pretty crim critical in the, for the human design.

Um, so anyhow, like understanding this about myself, I'm like, you know, when I. Set up the business this time and really with a high focus on community because I just, that is what I've loved so much about what I've done is not doing it alone. None of us doing it alone, and we're learning and we're creating these badass future selves.

And part of what makes our groups so special, we're like the alter egos we create, but also. When we meet in person, it's just like we've always known each other forever, right? And I really want to bring community. This is what's gonna happen with our technology. I also attended, um, some AI summits this week.

I've been just learning, learning, learning you guys 'cause I'm so excited and I'm like, how do I wanna fit this in to how I want to set the business up to honor myself? Right, like whatever you decided you want to do for yourself, whether it's uh, weight loss, working out, relationships, career. Leaving your job that sucks your soul out of you.

Like whatever that is, that you've decided, I am doing this. You don't even need a timeline on it, right? Just decide like, this is what I want. I'm doing it. You start building the vision. You start, uh, saying every time you see yourself getting a how. You let the hows go, and sometimes I'll struggle with this because I, I take so much action.

I'm literally doing like 500 things. It's almost like I have to make myself let go of the action because those are the hows and listen and allow. Divine downloads and all of that to come because I, I am open to that. My brain is made for that. It's very open to receiving new information, but I also can react very emotionally, so I can tend to jump in a lot of things and, and do all the new stuff really fast.

Right? So I have to give myself a little bit of time to. Rest and relax. And this is why it's so powerful, I think, to know ourselves like this you guys, and to say you, even if it's another tool that you use to reflect on yourself and you're like, oh, you know what? Yeah, I see that in me, or I don't see that.

I don't see that. Right? Like all of those things that can benefit you as you're creating this next awesome, badass version of yourself. I didn't even mean to take that dive right there into human design, but I guess it's on the mind, right? But it's all part of this reinvention too, of this. How am I going to intentionally create myself?

And in fact, you guys, that's a great idea, right? When I get the future self community up and roll in, because I wanna have an alter ego creation tank in there. And I think I'm gonna add human design in that too, just like we just have an overview, right? We don't have to be experts. We can hire coaches if we wanna be experts.

Like I go see my spirit guides, I go see um, my human design person. I go like, we can have people for everything. Right? But this idea of community and like all of these people like that I met in little zoom boxes that are like my besties now. That is just amazing. And part of what came out of this AI summit was they had this professor of happiness on there.

He's um, from Harvard. What is his name at? I'm gonna forget his name, but, um, I'll go look it up for you guys later. But he had the segment on there, and of course this was my big takeaway from the AI summit was from a happiness professor, but he said, you know, technology is absolutely coming to change our lives.

I mean, there's just, you've seen it already, and AI is just going at such a rapid rate. And he said, you know, one way to look at this is when you're using your technology to ask yourself, is it bringing me closer? To community, to people, to relationships, or is it taking me farther away? And if the answer is, it's bringing you closer.

If you're meeting your besties and having fun in zoom rooms and meeting in real life and you know, finding a coach you like through that or a community you're really engaged with, that is good feelings, right? If you are scrolling or following people that you. Don't necessarily have interaction or community built around or with, that's probably not good feelings.

Right? And I thought this was part of, so much of what I built. When when I WA originally started and we were the original Slay sisters and with the Facebook community and the way Facebook operated back then, it was much easier for us all to stay commun communicated to as a man, I am struggling with my vocab today.

Just roll with it, you guys. You know what I mean? So I thought. Knowing that this is part of what I want to create so badly, this, I want more besties. I want more badass witches and bitches that wanna travel the globe with me or retire around a lake in our RVs when all the men are gone having like fire dances and shit.

I don't know. Like I want more of that in my life. So I thought, how do I create this? Because if you, uh. Like my original dream was like, I loved summer camp. I want summer camp in my life every single day. Like how can I create this virtually where we have this space in this community where we're engaged in interacting and we get to know each other.

So we can then go out and do these awesome things while we're creating our future selves and learning and getting healthy and happy and all of that good stuff. So I just kind of been sitting back like, I've been thinking about this stuff for a long time. Right? You guys have been watching and. Just waiting for what the universe puts to me and learning my human design, knowing I am a generator, like I respond to things.

That's why you'll see me get excited about things like, oh my gosh, what's this vibration plate? And I try everything and then I have to share it with everybody. And then I'm moving on to something else that's a trait of a generator. Who knew? I'm like, oh, so I'm made this way. I'm supposed to be this way.

And so along this path, I found this. Community software called school. And if you guys haven't been over there, get over there. I'm gonna have links for you soon. I I would really, I haven't decided how I'm gonna set it up yet, so I am not, I'm not even gonna share it yet. When I'm ready to share it, I will, but I am engaging.

In all kinds of communities over there to figure out how I can make ours the most badass, fun place to exist in, be ever virtually, right? The idea is that rather than doomsday scrolling, which doesn't make you feel good, we know that doesn't lead you to happiness, right? That you can go and have a feel good feeling within your group, in your community.

That is around all these things you're interested in, which is, if you're here listening to me, is daring to believe is stepping into that next version of yourself might be weight loss. It might be like a achieving some type of goal, right? Like you want something more for yourself and you're probably an action taker.

You're probably. Ready to be nudged into how do I create this thing? Right? Here's what I always find fascinating is I follow a lot of gurus out there, like we all do. And they're all like, just don't you just, all you have to do is see it and don't get in the house. Um, just let it be, just relax and let it go.

And like, but nobody has the f and how for you. That makes me insane. Which by the way, is also part of my human design. Guys are gonna be sick of hearing this, but don't worry, I'll get over it soon once I figure out everything I am. So what? I have to have practical steps for things. This is what I really like and it's part of what I create too, right?

Because I'm like, it's not enough for me to just tell you, oh, this is how I made these habits. I need to create something to help you do that. To help myself make sure I keep doing it every day. Therefore, the me first guide was created, right? These practical steps, and that is just part of my design where someone else might be like, oh, you just show up in good vibrations.

Okay, Renee, that that wasn't my Renee voice. And I'm always like, how? And then my spirit guides say, stay out of the how. And I'm like. I need a foundation to even get in the vibration of the manifesting without the house. That's what the ME first guide is to me. It sets my baseline so I can even be in a space that I can receive and that I can be in that connected space, or else I just react to everything around me.

And I let it go, go, go. My wild horses are responding to everything in the universe, and I have then I'm not living with intention and with the plan, which I think is very important as we manifest and move forward into these next versions of our future self. So I have all these ideas, you guys, right? So it's, it's just like boom, boom, boom, coming from all over.

And I'm super excited. I can't wait to roll it out to all of you. And I wanna just do it right now. But I want to honor myself. Right? When is the last time you got excited about an idea and took time to craft it around you, around making sure that you are in alignment? This one of the women in my coaching group this morning, she found out her job is shifting, and so we spent the morning working on how can she make her morning routine.

Work for her regardless of this, the demands of this new position, right? Because her first reaction was to just get angry, to just be pissed out. How dare they give her this different opportunity at her job when it's gonna f with her mourning, right? So like taking that time to say, Hey, how can I create this to be in the most alignment with myself?

And if it doesn't work to keep working with that, and if it, maybe it's just not the job. Anymore. Right. But we have to give it that chance to figure out if we can be in alignment with it, if we can. So part of when I do my visioning in the morning, you guys and I see my future self and she's talking to me and I've got like, um, all this self doubt might come up as me being me, right?

And my future self. She's already there, right? She's already emanating like where I am going, and she's like, don't. Don't worry about the hustle of it, right? Like, yeah, you like to do stuff, that's fine. Just do your Addy stuff. But also all you need to do is believe. Like, what if you believed you were that person that could create the most badass community that everyone just wanted to be in?

And we met all these other badass witches and bitches around the world and we were just everywhere. Right? Like, what if I was that person that created something with that cool of a vibe that, and of course it'd only be people that. J like jived. Is that a horrible man? What is wrong with my phone cap today, you guys?

And like if you were here listening to my voice, you will like everyone else listening to it, it's the craziest thing, right? It bonds you like it bonds you. Having the alter ego name like this is all part and we're all against the little boxes. We were put in what society told us to be and we've, most of us have struggled with weight or body most of our lives, which is.

80% of the population anyway, we're not unique. Right? Like women, just in general. This is a struggle for us, right? But it's not about what it can create or the hustle or the losing weight or any of that. It's about believing that we already are that like once we're in that vibration, we can literally hop that timeline.

Like if we go from. You know, if I'm in this vibration of successful entrepreneur, skinny Addie or whatever the vibration of the moment might be, right? Well, like as soon as I believe I am that person, I start acting in alignment with that. And that gets into a bunch of like, we could run thought models from life coaching.

You can look at manifestation from an energy standpoint, from Dr. Joe's, like creating your, your. Your new self, right? Like all of those things show us that this is true. But how do we do that? Right? And that's again where the me first guide, where community comes in. When you are doing things with like-minded people, as Ja James clears, tell us us, you are like 80% more likely to adopt the habit.

So if you wanna do things like learn how to live intentionally, to plan to meditate. To light your, light your life up to dare to dream of something bigger. You want to hang around other people that are doing those things, right? It doesn't mean you have to do all of those things, but you probably wanna be in like, Hey, my future self does that.

She does those things, right? She's like. Thinking about self consciously and where she's going next, then you go find those people and hang out with them because that's how we become, right? Like so all of this doomsday scroll, and if you're in the doomsday scroll and if you're using AI in that way, make sure you're cultivating your feed, that it's taking you toward things you want.

Like what is it I desire? Like what am I interested in? Am I interested in human design? Lemme go binge some human design people. Am I interested in. Eating healthy. Let me look at healthier recipes or food or like, whatever that might be. Right? And I know when I lost over a hundred pounds the first time, like really everything I did, all my sensory inputs were around.

Food mindset, everything was related to that goal. I was like all in, right? And I know I've been all in on doing what I'm doing now. Ray and I finally decided to make the step, and I'm really curious this time to see, and I keep saying it's gonna be interesting. I am not gonna change a whole lot weight loss wise, but I think we're gonna see this naturally happen from my soul being in alignment.

And this is gonna be really fascinating, right? The last time I lost over a hundred pounds and did it with life coaching and changing my mind around things, I unlocked my soul. I unleashed her. I became this radiant. Beasts lighten up the planet right this time I'm gonna unleash the beast and see how the body is rocked.

I just, this is gonna be a fascinating experiment and I'm so here for it. So that is part of what goes into me believing in that too, like believing in myself in. This is what it can be, right? The belief itself is the decision as well, right? Like aligning my actions with the version of myself that is already doing it.

You know, last week I took the big leap. I quit the job right? This year, this week is really been. Landing stick in the landing, right? Like here I am, let's go. And faith energy in me and you guys remember I had other interviews, so I had second interviews. I missed a call on one. It got buried. I called her back.

But I think I missed my opportunity and I was really not worried about it. I was really almost relieved. And I'm like, add, that's pretty frigging telling right there where you wanna be, right? Like what you wanna be doing. And so I, it's just been a week of that stuff, you guys, and then I did this AI summit and just this realization with community and everything I'm learning with that, that.

Using tech to bring us together using tech to change our lives, using each other to be that community support, but also that path, that path ahead of making our next selves right. This is manifestation in motion, baby. It's. It's, it's a, a tension goes where your energy flows. It's all of that. It's all of that.

The laws of traction and the power of the universe and us manifesting and creating beyond our wildest dreams, like how can we make it even more fabulous? How can this second act even more fantastic than the first? So I, you know, I'm a firm believer, you guys that like you're. The dream life we are all waiting for.

It just starts when we believe it is us already, when we start living it Now, when we are slayer, when I am. What would slayer do? My future self alter ego, if you haven't been around long enough for that, right? What? What would she do? What if I was already her? So this week you guys join me in this, like reflecting what we're manifesting.

So we decided where are you at in that phase, right? Have you decided like, are you all in? If you've been trying to lose weight, let's take this for example, if you have been trying to lose weight. And you just haven't been able to, or you feel stuck or what can you say honestly that you've decided you are, that you are committed, that you are all in?

Or what do you really decide to do? Maybe you can decide to make a habit. I personally think it starts there. We create our future selves. We figure out what habits she does. At the scale and the food and everything else, you start building those habits and the rest of that follows. The rest of it goes when you start living as her, which comes down to our habits, but that's a whole nother episode.

Okay. You guys believe become and be. That is what we're doing and I, it's like it's in motion. I'm so f and excited to be here with you guys. I don't know why I'm censoring my F word today, but enjoy it while you can. 'cause I'm sure I'll be back with the full F word next week. Until then. You guys share this with any of your badass sisters out there that also need to make a decision.

Maybe make a leap, maybe just believe in themselves. Let's make a movement here. You guys hop on board. I love you. I really, really appreciate you being here. And let me in your ear. There's no place I'd rather be. Alright. Go slay. Go slay you badass bitches. I will see you next week. Until then, slayer out.