S3 Ep 209: 7 Days Until I Leave My Job: Becoming the Creator, Not the Consumer

Witches and bitches… we are officially 7 days away from me walking out of my job and into the life I’m meant to create. 😳🔥

In this episode, voice half-gone and soul fully ON FIRE, I take you behind the scenes of what it really feels like to stand on the edge of a life-changing decision — the fear, the magic, the synchronicities, and the fierce self-belief required to actually leap.

We dive into:

🔥 THE COUNTDOWN TO FREEDOM

Why leaving my job wasn’t even on my radar a few months ago… and the massive universal shove that said, “You’re done here.”

✨ CREATOR VS. CONSUMER ENERGY

How I realized I’d been consuming my life instead of creating it — with food, with work, with overwhelm — and what shifted when I finally decided to create again.

🌙 NUMEROLOGY, INTUITION & THE YEAR OF TRANSITION

How aligning with my Year 5 energy helped me see the bigger picture of what’s unfolding.

🧠 THE FEAR FACTOR

The “What the hell am I doing?” panic that hits every morning and how I coach myself through it using journaling, meditation, and the MEfirst magic stack.

🌀 SMALL HABITS THAT REBUILT MY SELF-TRUST

How getting back to basics — morning plan, afternoon meditation, intuitive choices — reconnected me with my future self.

🔮 MANIFESTATION IN ACTION

Why clarity was the miracle I called in, and how the universe delivered it in the form of signs, synchronicities, aligned communities, and one giant push out the door.

💬 THE QUESTION FOR YOU:

Are you creating your life?
 Or consuming your way through it?

Because the moment you choose “creator,” everything shifts — your energy, your habits, your environment, your belief.

I’m stepping into this next chapter with a shaky voice but a steady soul… and I want you on this ride with me.

If this episode hits — share it with a sister who’s standing on the edge of her own leap.
 Let’s rise as creators together.

Slay out, witches. 🔥✨

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Transcript

 What's up, witches and bitches. I'm gonna try to keep this short and sweet because as you can tell, I lost my voice this week. Okay. So since I have to tell you all the dirty details all the time, I had a colonoscopy, which if you haven't had one of these yet, it's just fantastic. Actually, the procedure itself is like.

No, you don't even know it happens, right? But that shit leading up to it, like, and no pun intended, but literally shitting your brains out for two days was a lot of fun. Anyhow, they put an oxygen mask on you, and I'm such a mouth breather that like I didn't even know it. I couldn't talk. The next day I went into work.

Because I didn't talk to anybody and, uh, went into work and tried to have a meeting and realized I couldn't speak. So anyhow, long way to tell you that. Yeah, I'm on recovery of my voice, so I did wanna update you guys 'cause Oh my God. We are only seven days away from me leaving my job. And if you would've asked me at the beginning of this year, if I would even be close to doing that, I would've said no.

I'm building the runway. I am taking this time while I'm here with Millie to just, you know, get everything lined up and get myself together knowing I wanted to do this. I've been, um, you know, taken. Courses and certifications and just really learning. Which is funny because that's kind of what a year three is, if you know numerology.

And then this was my year four of year of work and year five. Next year for me is a year of transition. And, um, all the things my Sagittarius blood loves, like I can go back out and map my numerology out and every year, five, I literally move. Like physically move locations. So it's been, uh, really interesting to have that awareness of self with all this, these fun, magical, mystical things too.

Right? Um, although, you know, they, that stuff's based on science too, right? Like numbers and equations and quantum shit. And I don't know you guys. So anyhow, we've got literally seven days left at this job, and I was thinking about this energy that brings, it's like when you're getting ready to go on vacation, you notice how much lighter you feel in the week leading up to it.

You're like, oh, I don't care. I'm outta here. I'm outta here. Right? And I see that same type of energy at work. Right now. I'm just letting things go that I used to let fester before and I'm like. What if I could have embodied the letting it go a little bit more while I was in this position, it probably would've felt a lot more tolerable and a lot less.

Painful, right? But like I'm almost outta my soul sucking job and not nothing against my employer, right? That's just I know my purpose and what I'm here for, and it's to be here with you guys. And it's to like be on the ride with you and share and learn and inspire and create community. Like these are the things I'm designed for.

And once you. See it, you can't unsee it and then your soul's like, don't put me back in that box. Right? Like, putting my soul back in that box firmly believe, packed all this weight back on me too. So as we're going through this regain and I'm re-leasing and opening a new group and a new community and changing how I'm doing things and really looking at, um, you know what, if we just explore letting our soul speak.

And that solves all the other problem. And we start following that and there should be some fear in our lives. Right? I was thinking about how I wake up every morning now, like, oh my God, what the hell am I doing? Right? And then I have to write myself through that. I do my magic morning pages, I do my plan, I do everything.

That's like, you fucking got this ad. Like what would you do if you believed in yourself so hard? I have a podcast on here called the. Amazon box of skinny, like when you're manifesting, when you're coming from this place of manifestation where you are already in that vibration before you get that, you've already become her.

And yes, we do this through habits and things like that, but visualization is a highly underrated technique and add in tapping and all these other skills, we can really accelerate and amplify that next version of ourselves. But it never comes without a sense. Fear, right? If you are daring to step into that next version of yourself, you're gonna be scared.

You're gonna feel like, oh my God, I can't do this. What's, what am I thinking? What's wrong with me? I'm not good enough for this, and these thoughts are gonna come up. It's what we do with those thoughts that matters. Right. We're gonna, we know stepping into the arena, we're gonna fail over and over again a million times before we get that result.

The difference is you and I get up and keep going, right? We have the process, we have the plan, we have the the way to get up and keep going. And for me, that's been the me first guide process. Like when I was feeling so shitty, I couldn't even do my daily plan. I was like literally rolling out of bed and going to work those six months.

Over this past year were just. Oh my gosh. It was so easy to get disconnected to that part of me that wanted to rise up to become that person that just consumed and wasted away in life again and wasn't daring to dream or believe I could be something more. And I know I can be so much fucking more. Do you guys know that about yourselves?

Like what is it you wanted to create that you haven't created yet? What is it like you're not hearing? And it could be just something as simple as, I just need a rest, right? Like, I can't, you wouldn't believe how many women I talk to that like are happy they have surgeries. So they can rest and that there's something wrong, right?

And this is why with our society, not with them, right? Like just with that, we have this feeling and this guilt in us. And how do we become the people that literally start putting ourselves first? We can learn how to eat the foods, how to cut calories, how to lose the weight, how to manage our mind around it.

But how do we. Make sure that that physical self comes from a place of us taking care of ourselves, like truly caring and becoming the people we were meant to be. And are, are you listening to that inner compass that we all have? I was talking to Rio and uh, coaching group this morning and she's diving into her human design.

And one of her things this week is to really start to get more in touch with her intuition and listen. And I was like, whoa, how are you gonna do that? You know? And she's like, just throughout the day, every single, um, and any simple little decision. She said she's starting with like anything like. Hey, do I really want to eat that or not?

Like seeing it from her gut check. It's like, does she really wanna do that? Even to the point of, Hey, do I wanna watch this TV show or not? Like, what is your gut saying about some of these simple decisions? So you can start to know when you're hearing it from these other little minds in our bodies, which is super freaky if you think about it, right?

Your gut has a brain, your heart has a brain, and obviously your brain has a brain and they all communicate right? And this is another, you know, we get so outta whack, like with our hormones and our gut health and you know, like sometimes it can feel harder to connect, especially when I am shoving it full of shit like shoving my mouth full of food.

Shoving my time full of consumption. You know, I'm already seeing my consumption shift and some of the things I did this, this year, you guys, small, tiny little shifts that led to this leap sooner that is also going to lead to my health being so much better again. Watch, jump on the ride with me. Let's do this shit together, right?

Like. So much of the shift I made this year has just been small little mindset shifts. I started intentionally back when I couldn't get up. First of all, I made my planning my power habit again, because when I got honest with myself, I wasn't doing my daily routine in the morning, like where he really take care of me.

And I recognized that going at one of our quarterly events and I was like, you know what? I gotta get back to doing that. And um, so since then I like have not missed my morning am habit stack, I call it. And I also added, added in my PM meditation and all that's. Done for me, you guys is create the space in that 20 minutes only, only 20 minutes in the afternoon.

It allows my cortisol levels to go back to normal or hopefully near it. It helps me process like pent up emotions. It helps my mind. I swear to God, I feel like I'm not even saying my mantra until the end of that 20 minutes. And for you guys that are familiar with a mantra based meditation, that's kind of funny, but it's like my mind is.

So busy. It takes that long of me just sitting there seeing my thoughts. Oh, I'm not saying the mantra. Go back to your mantra. So these are like the small things, right, which are huge if they weren't habits for you, right? Like I don't think you just wake up one day and decide, Hey, today I'm gonna meditate, I'm gonna do magic pages, and I'm gonna do a plan that involves 20 other little habits.

Like that just is not realistic, right? Like you have to start. Where you're at and to start small, but how do we do that? And this is what our group is all about. And I'm so excited for this new platform because I think what's really going to create the community that I've been looking. To have while we're on this journey together, and I just can't wait to get started.

I know I'm teasing you guys with it, but it's not gonna be after the new year because, well, I've got seven more days at this job and I've got Christmas with my girls planned stuff like that. So I'm planning to, um, launch like a rocket pretty soon. So keep your eyes open, you guys. But the other thing I did this year.

Hopefully it's not painful for you guys to listen to my voice like this. It doesn't hurt just so you know. It just sounds terrible. But the other thing I did was, um, really put manifestation stuff back in my ear. You know, I'm part of the book Club Bitches with Francesca Amber, and um, I. Just, I do that book.

I was sitting in my car two and a half hours a day, right. And she does this private members podcast where we go through a book a month and I pick up a little thing here and there. It's never like, oh, this is like. This whole book changed my life, right? Like, it's like I'm picking up these little things.

Now, mind you, I have those books that have changed my life and I think I might even open, uh, season four of the podcast. Like just kind of going back through, hey, these things like rocked my fucking world. And here's why. Like from the artist way, the Big Leap 5:00 AM Club, there's certain books that. Just continue to have an impact over and over Atomic, Abbot, those type of things.

But being in this environment where we're constantly talking about, um, what we wanna create, what we wanna manifest, what you put out into the world, and being with other people that are thinking like that, you guys is priceless. Do not underestimate that, the power of what we're putting in our ears. So I shifted, really all of my podcasts listening.

I am in no BS weight loss with Corinne, but. I just decided to not put my focus there into just really dive into just some more of the manifestation practice for right now. Just because I was just feeling so miserable. Like I didn't even really give a shit about the weight. I was just so miserable in my life in general.

I knew I needed to look at a different path initially, and I think I am not leaving Nobis. I think there's so much. Amazing value, and I love listening to Corinne. I always pick up something, I'm like, uh, Uhhuh, yep. That I need to pay attention to that, or I need to do that. And it's just about picking up these little nuggets that shift us forward.

But if you would even ask me at the beginning of this quarter, if I'd be leaving my job right now, I would. I not, I'd be like, no frigging way. Right? I just like, it was nowhere in my mindset. And then we started doing this book, and I think I was telling you guys last week, um, the aligned abundance, it's called from Emma Munford.

And I had a couple things in this book. It's all, all right. Like a lot of the manifestation books, um. Sounds similar, but there's this one part and I'm like, okay, I'm gonna do this for this month. It's said to set your intention, and I was like, I really want clarity around my job. Like is this. Somewhere I stay.

Is this something I keep doing? You know, do I just find another job? Like I need clarity, right? So I said this every morning for all of October, right? Universe. I call upon you to help me bring this miracle of clarity in my career, into my life for the highest good of all. I trust you to align me with the right people places.

Opportunities to help manifest creative solutions and miracles in my life. I welcome in these miracles and solutions with ease. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you universe. And all of a sudden, you guys, like I got, I had like a really horrible thing happen at work that I was like, whatever, I'm outta here.

That's ridiculous, right? And so it, that was a huge sign. I was like, well, this is just a big sign. Because like none of it was even called for. So it was just clearly a sign from the universe. Universe was like, you definitely just need to push out the door ad. And then I, um, just, I fell into the school community through this membership, this aligned af.

Business membership that just came into my feed and I had been really looking for other entrepreneurs to be on this journey with It can be lonely. Stepping into the unknown by yourself. We know this, just like stepping into a weight loss journey. Any new habit, any new. Thing you want to create. Doing it with other people will first of all help you create it better and faster because you're in that same environment as other people.

James Clear talks about this. You wanna be a marathon runner? Go hang around marathon runners, right? You wanna be a badass future self, which you bitch, you know, concerned about our health and all that other shit. Come hang around to me first sisters, right? You wanna lose weight, go hang around. Corinne, you wanna, like we we're.

Are those things that you wanna be, and where are the people? And we find them. And so I fell into this community and I'm like, oh my gosh. All of a sudden I have all these other entrepreneur groups I'm in. I have the, all these amazing women I'm connecting with. I'm like, I can't fucking believe this. And it's like everything I, I think, um, oh, I need.

I really need to get on YouTube, and then a YouTube person will just like float into my awareness and like it'll be just the thing I needed to hear. And then it was Black Friday and all my gear was on sale. And I mean, it was just like you guys, when the synchronicities hit, when the doors open, you just know you're on the right path.

And then the other day I get. An email from the CBRE interview out here in Kale. And um, we never actually hooked up. I only had a phone interview and I thought, okay, well they're just not interested. It doesn't matter 'cause I'm not really interested either. And so they called me back, they said, Hey, you know, we'd like to set it in person.

And I was like, okay, that's like a month later. But, you know, I'm like, okay, is this a sign from the universe? And I have like. Zero energy around it. So I said I would go to the interview, which is Thursday, but I just, I really feel like I should just cancel it. I'm just, I have no eggs in that basket, you know what I mean?

I'm like all in. I was telling my group this morning, I said, you know, it's like if I go and. To interview or do this job or like, why would I take this job? It would be because I didn't believe in myself. How hard are you gonna believe in yourself? This brings me back to the Amazon box of Skinny. I started to tell you about holy shit on the squirrels.

I. Sorry you guys, I can't wait till this is on YouTube and we can really laugh together. And, um, so when you, the, the idea that Amazon Box is skinny and the manifestation they start talking about is this idea that you just believe so hard that it's here already, that you already have it. Right. Like you know when you push order on Amazon, it says it's gonna be there tomorrow.

It's here tomorrow. I mean, most of the time, right? Like you just expect it to be there. And this is what we're talking about with like, if I just expect my business to just be this kick ass. Thing I'm creating and imagining then how hard can I believe in that, right? Do I believe in that? And where do I not believe?

Because uncovering that shit is the game changer. Uncovering what am I not believing about? And this is what I'm telling you guys, when every morning I wake up and I'm in. This ball of terror. Oh my God, what if no one likes my stuff? What if I quit and I'm broke? What if I don't make any money? What if I don't help people?

What if I don't? Which is all ridiculous 'cause I already know. Just me showing up to the podcast clearly helps people. 'cause they, you guys reach out to me and are like, I really need to hear that today. 'cause um, I was feeling the same way or whatever it might be, right? Like it's just. Like I know these things and I even have proof now and my brain will still offer me this up because it wants to keep you safe and you know what safe felt like you guys safe felt like stuff in myself until I could go to sleep.

That's what safe felt like because ultimately I was so miserable being safe that I ate it away. I consumed it away. I consumed away what I'm really supposed to be doing. And so what if I believe, would I go to this interview? No. No, I'm just wasting my time and their time. Right. I need to just cancel it now that I'm saying that out loud because I do believe, I believe like we are meant to do this together and that in some way, shape, or form, I'm just watching.

For the next thing the universe is gonna bring to me, for me to react to. 'cause I'm a generator, right? Like I just react to things and I respond and it's how I create even. So I'm like, what? What is next? What could be the coolest thing ever when I have this vision of just this community of. Badass women coming together, daring to step into this next version of themselves.

And whether that's a thinner version, stronger version, a job free version, uh, a woman on a mountaintop traveling version, like whatever that version is, how do we start to dream it, to create it, to become it? You know, I think we can get so stuck in that consuming. That it's important to take this time to create for yourself, like are you gonna be a creator of life or a consumer of life?

I'm gonna leave you guys with that today 'cause and I'd love to hear, if you wanna be a creator or a consumer, let me know. Um, I'd say send this to some other witchy bitches that need to hear this shit. But, um, my voice, you might wanna take it or leave it. I don't know if I can, uh, enhance the audio on it, but I will Sure.

Try. So that's it for this week, you guys. Seven days. I'm off to see Chicago at the theater with Millie today. We're super excited. We have our little day out, we're doing a fancy lunch and then off to the theater. So I gotta get rolling. Uh, but I love you guys to pieces and thanks for being here. And remember.

Are you gonna be a creator of life or a consumer? And look at what you're consuming this week, and is it helping you create? Is it helping you build a runway to create this next version of yourself? And maybe it is, and that's awesome. Let me know. I love it. All right. Until next week you guys slay out.