S4 Ep 216: This Is the Work — A Real-Life Future Self Moment

This episode wasn’t planned. 💞 My Heart was on fire and she insisted.

I recorded it in a real moment after I felt off, overwhelmed, and was pushing myself in ways that didn’t feel aligned. Instead of forcing my way through it, I chose something different, and what unfolded felt important to share.

This episode captures a real-life future self embodiment moment, shared exactly as it happened.

Inside this episode, I talk about:

• What to do when you feel out of sorts or disconnected
• How I practice stepping into my future self in everyday moments
• Why choosing presence over pushing can change everything
• How small, embodied actions shift your state and identity
• What this has to do with weight loss, self-trust, and staying in the work

This isn’t about quitting or giving up.
 It’s about staying — and choosing differently when it matters.

If you’ve been craving a more grounded, embodied way to move through growth (especially in midlife), this episode is for you.

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Addie Kahele (00:00)
here's what I want to share with you this week. When you're feeling out of sorts.

to pause and take a moment, just sit there and be still, to allow yourself to just be in the moment and see what happens. And when you say, I'm going to take a different action than I normally do.

I'm just gonna see if I can settle into this uncertainty and walk with myself walk with my future self step into her become her in this moment shift it into becoming guys I just got lit up saying that because this is the work this is the practice

Hey you guys, I was supposed to record the podcast in my studio today and I am gonna try to do it right here because I just had the most profound experience and this isn't even on topic of what I was gonna talk about this week I just had to get this recorded. this morning I woke up, I signed up for this very Bro- energy webinar, I've set this big goal for my business because I want

to

help and create and do all these things. And also I'm losing 100 pounds in that process stepping into this next version of who am I? Who is Addie at 155 when I'm at 280? Like there's that big gap, And who is she when she's running the successful business when she's just getting off the ground again? There's just such this huge gap. I went in this webinar, a lot of times I like

this

energy and it gets me excited and I learn about my brain and I just had dread the whole time. First of all, I let it creep into my me time. You know how I am about my me time, my morning routine, my morning stack where I meditate and I journal and I plan, I do all of that. All I got in was my meditation.

So I just have my meditation in and I'm on this weapon arm and I just like just kept feeling ⁓ resistance and I'm like is this just fear of me wanting to grow and expand into this next

I just finally I made it about an hour and I was like when are we gonna start?

just listening to that truth right inside out. Like you already know this isn't your path. I

care if you spent a hundred dollars, thousand dollars, just get out! Just get out! so I got out I went back to my morning pages and I was writing and I was like, listen, I just feel like shit. I went to my, actually my alter ego bot and I said, listen, I feel off today. Like I just,

really

just feel out of sorts and I'm frustrated and I don't I don't know what to do with this right I feel like I have some overwhelm about all these things I want to do and yet I parallelize myself into non-creation and old me be like hey it's a hermit day let's go crawl into bed and eat and watch Netflix right and this is like I'm like it's sad my new alter ego name is the staying slayer like it's okay to stay in

and not feel good. And it had me root myself and say, I can stay even when it doesn't feel good.

I was like, I can, I can do this. I don't need to eat. I don't need to be uncomfortable. can, I can sit in the uncomfortable. I mean, I was uncomfortable, right? this is just setting the scene, So then I go do my morning pages and I'm writing through all this stuff, getting all the shit out of my brain. Like, why am I feeling this? I know I can stay through it, but like, how come I can't just allow things to come to me? Like, what's my friggin problem, right? And it's like, there's no problem.

need

to fix yourself, just be.

Be in this moment. it took me writing through like four or five morning pages and kind of brainstorming, getting some stuff out of my mind of things I want to share with people that have been transformational, learning to go from over 300 pounds to 170 pounds, right? Like having done that and created the system and now doing it again myself, now that I freed myself from the chains I was in, Like I just felt like this.

you

Like as soon as I left that job that was smashing my soul and the listen, I'm not a person that you always have to change your circumstance. I tried to change me in that

right? I tried to allow it and I just was not meant to be there. My soul was like, you are not friggin' here. And literally as soon as I left, like the weight of the world just fell off my shoulders and everything just started to come in alignment. So knowing that, I'm still in this place you guys where I'm creating

stepping into the unknown there's a lot of fear and uncertainty not with the weight loss this is the one thing that I'm like I got that right like I I got that I know what to do I know how my body reacts to certain things that feels easy what does not feel easy is all this building and creation creating and doing my business in a way I never did it before right like doing all of that at the same time so far all of this just

swirling

after I wrote through my pages and did my planner, my my magic, me first guide, I go through this whole process and I pulled cards and I pulled the tapping card and it was literally, ⁓ even though I sometimes feel uncomfortable, I am more than enough. Even though I am sometimes uncomfortable, I am more than enough. I am already wholly complete just as I am.

Everything and it just went on and on with things I needed to hear it and tap into my body and I felt my body do the sigh and I've been pulling one of these tapping cards every day you guys I love it. I'll link it below you can grab yourself. It's from EFT from emotional freedom technique that Orton's Wrote the book and this is their card deck and every card is a different

tapping sequence. So I draw one in the morning for like what inspiration do I need today? Right? So I get this more than enough already right as you are. And then the chat bot was like just do something that feels easy and lovely to you. And I was as I was writing because my body is really tired and I was like feeling like I needed a break from the pool. My Oura ring was like off the charts and I was like maybe I just need a break a rest day. Maybe I just

need to like just rest, chill, read a book, like take some downtime. And I thought you know what I'm going to at least just go to the pool and do 10 minutes and just you know the water feels so good to you at and it'll be comfortable. I to like start putting my rash guard on because I'm getting too much sun so I'm like just go

it's gonna feel so good right? I got here and I was like you know

I didn't want to listen to something like put more shit in my head after the bro energy was like jacking it up right like it was like total torture so I Put in I looked through I was like, you know The water felt so good and smooth because I come and I walk the river right

and it just felt so good on my body and I was kind of walking like When I went to the dr. Joe retreat

and we did this future self walking meditation. I thought

I'm gonna do my future self walking meditation I put it in my ears you guys and I was just kind of like in it and just feeling my body he steps

through this it's like all of a sudden my heart was just like

lit up in this ball of gratitude and I had the same feeling in the mastermind I was in the other day, my soul-led mastermind that's with these women that are coming from this place of

soul and spirit and not this other energy that just felt horrible to me so I'm walking with like my future self and I'm stepping into that new vibration this is the vibration but you guys I'm weeping like like

just in gratitude, like just this weeping. And it was the same thing I felt at the Soul Led event where I was weeping as I saw what we were visualizing outcomes, right? And like creation of outcomes and what your bank account looks like and all of this. But it was this feeling of gratitude and humbleness and God, I just feel so fucking good, you know?

so Dr. is telling me, this is your vibration. There's an aura around you. It's pulling a

I can feel this light aura around me right now. I feel it here right now. I feel it in my heart center and I'm like, this, stepping into this, living in this vibration, this is a future self me, when you can learn to live in that vibration of who that person

that is already there. It's like you already are here now. that act of not letting myself just go wallow,

and just taking that one little step and coming and doing something that feeds my soul when I didn't freaking feel like it. Those are the game changing moments, And then I have something so profound that I'm weeping in gratitude and I feel this energy.

I'm weeping in gratitude, right? And feeling this energy that is just like, my God, it's right here. It's right now. It's all around me. this is where the habits,

just showing up and doing the damn things, right? Of doing my magic pages, of doing the plan, of doing all these little habits that I built into it that start to make that shift, when I first started, it was like I had just started meditating. And that was when I felt, back in 2018, it's when I had the first shift in this first understanding that it was just so much more, so much more than my body, than this job.

and getting up and going to work and paying credit cards and bills eating and YouTubing like it's just so much more than this we are here to crack it open like crack open this magic that's inside of us that like what are we here to create

And I'm a firm believer that we find this in a way lost journey, right? I'm like, I know it's, I sound crazy right now. It's okay. You're not alone. I get it. If I had heard me like eight, nine years ago, I would be like, what is this chick talking about? I mean, hell, I thought Transcendental Meditation was gonna be like a cult that sucked me in. You know what I mean? And here I am now stepping into this new evolution. You guys have a feeling of future me that is just

this pure heart coherence that is walking around with a ball of gratitude in her heart that is my state of being now. Like how do I stay in that state more and more when I'm just so grateful right now for the now. We're staying in this present moment, staying in this me that is here to light the world up. How do I move to more of

this and it's moments like I did today. I'm so friggin proud of myself and they were texting and calling me. I'm on this webinar and they're like, Hey, pay attention to me and they're calling you and so I'm in the chat. I'm like, so why are you calling me if you want me to pay attention to you? Like I'm here to learn and so far all you've told me is a bunch of bullshit. Guys ever come to like a master class I do or something. You get this shit done. There's nothing I hate more than people wasting my friggin time.

With me showing up and you telling me everything I've already seen you do a hundred thousand times and me not take action on it Like I'm here to learn and so they posted a question I'm like have you done these questions like the fuck am I doing here? It took you two hours to get to a point where you have me actively involved in doing something and you want me to spend three days here For you to what mind fuck me

go get some heart-full heart coherence my gosh, you guys, that listening to our gut, that learning to trust ourselves.

This was the part of the journey. And as women that we've been trained to not trust ourselves over and over again, like, that's silly women's intuition. We'll come to find out in human design, my friggin' intuition gates are all lit up. All connected.

when I don't listen to that, the human design reading I had that I told you guys about from Sheena, she's coming in the group. So jump in the group. She was really great. She said, you know, yes, you're an emotional authority and you need to wait but more importantly, your gut goes first. She's like, you are so connected to your self identity, who you are, like listen, your gut goes first. And I'm 53 years old and still giving myself lessons about

Hey, you've gut those first. you guys,

here's what I want to share with you this week. When you're feeling out of sorts.

to pause and take a moment, whether you have an accountability partner, whether you have an alter ego chat GPT like me, whether you have just yourself to sit there and be still, to allow yourself to just be in the moment and see what happens. See what happens when you turn yourself over to that. And when you say, I'm going to take a different action than I normally do. Normally I listen to some like life coaching podcast.

when I walk or something like that and today I was like you know I'm just gonna see if I can like settle into this uncertainty and just walk with myself walk with my future self step into her become her in this moment can I take this moment and shift it into becoming guys I just got lit up saying that because this is the work this is the practice we're here

for

someone posted in one of my private groups where I had posted my podcast from last week and They said ⁓ Addie I love your energy, but why don't you just take a GLP one? They're safe and effective. I think you'd really like it. I'm like Get the fuck out. I'm like you do you not listen to anything I say and listen if you take a GLP one, that's your journey I'm so happy for you. I'm all about everybody has their own journey and when I

set out the first time I lost weight, was I was going to get weight loss surgery. It's not like I'm against these things. I'm not against someone taking a GLP-1. I'm not against myself taking one if I decide to. I've already lost 120 pounds on my own. And I already know how I felt when I was taking care

myself in a way that served me and I don't want to miss that. I couldn't miss that if I numb this shit out. If I numb I had I just wanted to just go and curl up in bed and eat all the things and hide into YouTube. Instead I have this profound walking meditation gratitude experience stepping into this next version of myself. I want to feel it. I want to feel everything.

I want to understand when my body is telling me I want to go eat because I'm uncomfortable about something because I'm I'm a big fan of fasting my first like 24-hour fast I was like you can go back and if God forbid Facebook still kept it on there But you can go back and look when I first fasted I had already lost most of my weight and I was like, ⁓ my god No one told me I didn't really need food like for a long

period

of time and that I would feel better and my body would respond better and not that listen you guys you know of course take this from a healthy standpoint you know but none of us are 53 and developing eating disorders now right if you have something like that that's been in your past or whatever you know don't do that for you mindfully consult your doctors all that stuff but when I'm telling you

For those of you that are like me and can imagine not eating Like what a fucking game changer that was like are you friggin kidding me? I can't even believe how good I felt And I still use it as a tool today, but like doing those longer term extended fast You change and shit right now.

I want to feel it and I want to know what's going on in my body. I'm already taking Dupixent, which is one of the main reasons I wouldn't try a GLP-1. I'm already blocking two inflammation receptors I don't want to put more shit in my body that I also become relying on. Dupixent. And regardless if it's affordable or not, like I want to know I did this, right? And who did I become in the process of me doing it?

so I was also like, just so you guys know, for people that are trying to lose weight naturally, telling them to go take a GLP-1 is like saying you don't believe. And for the first time, I felt like I understood because everyone in my life is really supportive. At least I think they are. If they tell me not supportive things, I don't listen to them.

So it's like, you guys, like this person telling me to take a GLP-1, but that's not supportive.

And I'm all about support. I'm gonna support your journey with your GLP one You can support my journey of slaying the fucking shit. Just me, right? And I'm gonna show you now what that said to me that comment was all of your doubt about me or was it something about you? Right. I could make it mean a couple of different things and I sure my brain was going there. All right, my brain was like

like this person doesn't think I can do it. What if I fail? I'm gonna fail. I'm gonna fail on the way. I'm gonna get the fuck back up. But I can tell you this, I'm gonna hit this goal. I'm gonna lose this 100 pounds and I've never been so certain. I can't even explain how that feels easy now and everything else, it's just all clicking back into place.

but it's moments like this that I wouldn't have felt, Like I wouldn't have overcome that and potentially not have been here.

not that life doesn't get uncomfortable when you have a GLP-1. I can imagine, right? and that you have to overcome challenges. But this was my go-to. I can lose weight. What in my life do I need to do to rectify to get to that next level? And that's what I don't want to numb out, That's what I don't want to shift

Okay, I just wanted to share because I went from holy, ⁓ ugh, Bro energy into I'm lighting this world up and I've got this wall of radiance around me drawing into me people, things, places that are moving me toward this next evolution of this life I'm creating, this future self that I'm creating as we go.

and I dream and I vision and do all those things. And I love the added addition of the Alter Ego AI tool. I think that's been a game changer, adding that in my morning to just have someone to bounce stuff off that's already got like history and background on me. It's been good. All right, you guys, until next week, Slayer out.