S4 Ep 224: I’m Reinventing Myself at 53… And It’s Messy AF 🔥 | Alter Ego & Identity Work

You ever feel like you’re becoming someone new…
 and also like everything is kind of a hot mess at the same time? 😂🔥

Yeah. Same. You GET ME! lol

This episode is a real-time download of where I’m at right now in the height of building a challenge and community, reinventing myself at 53, losing weight (again), building my business, and stepping into a whole new identity using alter ego work.

As always on Midlife Badassery...this isn’t the polished “I figured it out” version. I mean, does she really exist?! lol...there is just another goal after that!

This is the eternal messy middle of growth.

Welcome to Transfomation Bs!

I’m navigating big questions like:
 👉 Am I playing small… or actually building something bigger?
 👉 Is this aligned… or just easier?
 👉 Who the hell am I becoming right now?

We talk about:
 ✨ Alter egos (Slayer, Brookster & beyond)
 ✨ Identity shifts vs starting over
 ✨ Manifestation, decision-making, and trusting yourself again
 ✨ What midlife reinvention actually looks like in real life

And I share something happening behind the scenes right now that has me questioning everything (in the best way 👀)

If you’re a midlife woman who’s done starting over and ready to actually become her…

you’re in the right place. 🔥

And, get your hot badass self inside the group and build your Alter Ego! woo hoo!

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Transcript

Addie Beall:

This is going to be a DL about where I am right now with my identity creation… this whole midlife reinvention I’m in.

Losing 100 pounds. Building my business. Creating a new identity. Manifesting. Rewiring old beliefs. Throwing everything at the wall…

And sometimes everything comes flying right back at you.

And you’re like… okay… what’s actually sticking?

Like that old spaghetti noodle on the wall 😂
Is this sticking? Is this a sign? Am I supposed to follow this?

That’s what we’re digging into today.

I want to keep you guys in the loop and keep showing up here for the podcast…

But also—I’m in the middle of this Alter Ego Challenge inside my Skool community and it is FUN.

Like… I’m on fire 🔥

I’m watching the transformation wheels start turning in people’s heads already, and that lights me up so much.

And at the same time… I’m creating another version of myself.

Back in 2018, quick recap…

I was 300 pounds. Miserable. Corporate America. Kids across the ocean.

And I was doing future self work… but I couldn’t even imagine being 155 when I was 300.

It was too far.

So I created an alter ego.

A third-party version of me.
She was me… but not me yet.

Like Superman vs Clark Kent.

And here’s the thing…

Superman is the real one.

That alter ego became Slayer.

And I became her.

Like Lady Gaga / Stephanie. Beyoncé / Sasha Fierce.

You start to embody that part of you.

But here’s what’s interesting…

I never created a business identity.

I was just using Slayer for everything.

So now… I’m building a new one.

Brookster — my business alter ego.

She’s got some Brooke Castillo energy… a little woo, but no bullshit… kind, generous… but not here to play small.

And this is where things get interesting…

Because as I’m building this version of me… as I’m launching… creating… showing up…

opportunities start appearing.

And now I have this moment where I’m asking:

Is this aligned… or is this just easier?
Is this something the universe is putting in front of me… or is this me trying to step back and play small again?

Because I just got offered what would’ve been my DREAM job a few months ago.

Like… perfect setup. Right next door. Great team.

And now I’m like…

wait…

what does this mean?

Am I building something bigger?

Or am I about to shrink again?

This is the messy middle, you guys.

This is what midlife reinvention actually looks like.

Not the highlight reel.

And here’s the thing…

When I put Slayer back on—when I come back into that identity—

everything shifts.

I take care of myself again.
I show up.
I create.
I move.

Because this whole process?

It’s not about “starting over.”

It’s about becoming someone new.

And right now…

I’m in it.

Building her. Testing things. Making moves. Questioning everything.

I’m also down 20 pounds right now 🙌

We’ve got goals. We’ve got momentum.

And I’m opening up my planning group soon where we take these alter egos and actually LIVE them.

Because that’s the difference.

You don’t just create her… you become her.

And yeah…

There’s manifestation.
There’s identity work.
There’s mindset.

But there’s also…

real life decisions
health stuff
energy regulation
systems
building something sustainable

This is what it looks like.

Messy. Powerful. Real.

So if you’re in a place where you’re like:

“I am DONE starting over…”

Then maybe it’s time to stop trying to fix your life…

…and start becoming someone new inside of it.

Come create your alter ego.

Come play.

Come build her.

Because I don’t know exactly what’s going to happen next…

But I do know this:

I’m not going back.

Alright you guys…

Thanks for being here.
Thanks for listening.

Let’s go make some badass alter egos 🔥