S4 Ep 237: Six Months Later... I'm Back on the Mountain | Progress Over Perfection

Six months ago, I sat on this very mountain wondering what the next chapter of my life would look like.

Today, I'm back.

I'm 30 pounds lighter, my community has grown from an idea into 450 incredible women, and somewhere along the way... I stopped chasing a perfect life and learned to truly love the one I was living.

In this deeply personal reflection, I share what actually changed over the past six months—including the things I never saw coming.

We talk about:

✨ Why the biggest transformation wasn't the number on the scale (although, I'll take 30 pounds down)!

✨ Building an alter ego that changed everything

✨ Learning to love my life—even when it was confined to one room

✨ Healing, health challenges, and why progress isn't always linear

✨ Dreaming bigger than weight loss

✨ Why I'm planning to work from Scotland next year (yes... really!)

✨ What I hope the next six months will bring

If you've ever felt like your life is meant for something more than simply losing weight, being on the hamster wheel of life, same day in and out...

This episode is for you.

Because sometimes the greatest transformation isn't becoming someone new.

It's finally becoming yourself. 

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Here we are back at the sea of no crime, you guys. Six months ago today. I sat up here on this mountain visiting Phoenix, this mountain that saved me. This was the place I came when I first was lost all my weight when I was in this like 300 pound ball of despair and I would just come up here every day and it was really like my my sanctuary, Like this this place and I just sat here today and just wept.

And just thinking how just out of gratitude, like I'm just so grateful for this journey of life and to feel this way again. And I was listening back to my episode because I wanted to give you do like a six month snapshot here. And maybe every six months I get to this mountain and do a snapshot. I'm 30 pounds lighter. My group I was talking about at the beginning of the year was non-existent.

Now we have 450 women that are in there building their alter egos that I talked about because this is one of the things that changed the game for me was building Slayer, my alter ego that got out there and slayed the goals and got her ass up and got to the mountain. And now I have like three alter egos and they've all like just transformed my life exponentially. And I have my deeper work community where we do the me first guide work.

And so much has changed. I was listening back. But one of the things that stood out to me the most when I was talking on that, here's what I want the next year to look like. I was talking about my morning routine and how I set it up and how I was just seeking to love my life again. So as I sat up here and wept this morning, I was like, you know, I I've learned to love my life in a room.

And this is what was most interesting. As I said, this is what I want my life to look like. And I was trying so hard to do that because before, you know how we always try to do something that worked for us before and repeat. Like that's like that's gonna work the next time. Like you're obviously on the journey to learn something new, right? butterflies. They always find me up here. New beginnings, hummingbirds, butterflies. Like they flocked to me. I remember I was in the middle of my spiritual awakening up here, and it was like,

You know? Okay, back back to us. I do squirrel. It's just a thing that happens here.

learning to just really love my life again. That was what's so clear. during that time that I had just really uprooted my life, had moved back to Hawaii, was in this job, and just not trying to do all the things that I had done here that lit my soul up, like being outside, being in the earth, doing all of these things. And yet it was a struggle for my body with

It's just allergies, mold toxicity, all of this stuff I had going on, at the beginning of the year I said I really wanted to create that, you know, I could see this morning I loved so much. And I started that way. I started going to the pool every day as even podcasting from the pool and really loving it, but my body was still just really inflamed. And I even talked about getting these ebbables and smoothies like something fresh. And now I'm on this like low food.

food map, low histamine, just getting my skin and my inflammation and my body under control, is has nothing to do with like weight loss, Because I lose weight faster with my big ass salad and protein method. That's like it just falls off me and I'm satisfied and it's all great, So dealing with health issues where you're kind of navigating new foods and what the hell do I eat has been a journey.

I just figured out somewhere around, I don't know, like March or April, that I was just gonna stay inside as much as possible because I could tell I was recovering quicker. so literally I just ate, slept, worked in my room. And I thought, first of all, what great experience living in a rig was.

And thank God I have a master bedroom suite at where I'm at. I lived with my daughters in her last year in high school and I'm with in my ex-husband's home and we're just like good roommates type situation, And I have the master bedroom suite. And in that I have just set up little different areas for myself because I learned in the R V,

I do this thing called magic spaces and I have little areas that I kind of transition who I am. I have like my yoga area where I'm yoga at. I'm all, my heart's singing, right? I'm all now sleigh, bitches. And then I get on my treadmill and I'm a little bit of slayer there. And then I have my workstation that is like I'm locked in.

I was sitting here, I was like, this just sitting still with my bare feet in the earth. I've been on this money elimin block elimination quest this year, really figure out my financial and money house and how that is in order too, like along with my health and relationships and all is part of the puzzle,

And looking at okay, if I look at like five hundred thousand dollars, a million dollars, like what is it you'd want if you were to put a number on it? And as I was something like this is what's priceless, Is it being up here and having my feet in the earth and the stillness and the freedom to do my day? That is what's priceless. That is what I'm seeking. And as I've been building and creating in a business and my body again.

And working with my chat bot, right? I have these alter ego GPTs they're really good. So in my group, I have this, we go through this evolution, And then we build you get your custom alter ego GPT. And in this,

in this custom GPT, you get your archetype, whether you're a warrior, a witch, a queen, or an alchemist, right? Depending on what you're needing in your life right now. you get this like little life coach in your pocket, and then you build your ultra ego. And this is where you build your slayer.

it is you creating from a piece of yourself this badass that you tap into and you become, and it gives you this third immediate third party perspective. And I was working on this how the flow goes. Like, where are women at when they meet me? And they're typically, listen, you've been on a weight loss quest your whole life.

But you know what's about something more. Those are the people. And they're ready to get curious and do some of the work to figure out what that something more is. They're ready to come in and try to experiment doing new things. And I find you guys the women that can suspend.

reality the most and step into their imagination to really play with the alter ego, so much easier for. And this is because it immediately gives you that third party perspective that you're able to see. So I created Brookster this year and she's in charge of getting our shit done at work. And I activate her by putting pants on,

Okay. So six month reflection.

one of my big things in the new year that I talked about was wanting to grow YouTube. I had 106 subscribers when I started, but literally they were people from back in the day that my channel was dormant, And now I'm at like 273. And so it's slowly growing and gathering my people. And it's really changed from YouTube dominance.

To what can I create and what kind of videos are going to reach and really help that person that is in that place? You've been on this weight loss quest and you're starting to know it's about something more. What can help you unlock that something more? So you start to get that tangle of belief of getting excited about life again. Can you imagine? You wake up and you're like, my God, what do I get to create today? What's in store? I get to like that's how I'm starting to feel again every day.

it's been through this process, not just here in Arizona because I'm on my mountain, although that is extra special. But I've learned to feel that in my room. I've created these things I said I wanted, these women that gather in my community. It was in my la in that video. You know, all of it was in there about how I wanted to live and feel through life because we get our oxytocin, my relationship with my kids,

all of those things that I set out in some aspect are coming into fruition. Like that's so exciting. And we have about one year before my youngest graduates in Hawaii. And then my plan is to come back here. But really to nomad, I wanna work around the world and I can see myself taking off on a hike in Scotland. That's my first destination. Don't ask, it's a long story. maybe I go

Swim with the fairies or whatever. You know, get my feet in the earth. Hike some stairs. I was thinking about that this morning because by the time I do that, I will not be carrying this weight on my body and my knees won't hurt like they do. Because getting up here, I could I can just feel them. I just remind myself, hey, without an extra, you know, now it's like 70 pounds, down 30, you guys. Told you I'm doing it here.

I was listening to a podcast with Burt Pestio. she does this weekly life coaching and she's talking about how you just have to feel and sit in emotions. And one of the

big things I've uncovered this year. I've been sharing recently here on the podcast, and that's been really EFT, Emotional Freedom Technique, the tapping. this is just such a game changer on the journey. I was exposed to it before and I've dabbled in it. But like really tapping in that neuroscience with it to add to my arsenal of meditation, journaling, plan, like all of these things that have become making my life one

I love and full of joy. It's not the act of journaling or the plan or the meditation or the tapping. It's what it does to prepare you to think from your smart brain is what it all comes down to, to be able to execute what your smart brains already said ahead of time. This is for my highest self. This is for my highest and best good to do this thing. That's what all of these tools have led up to. And what I found, in

Putting together the Me First Guide, which is the planner, the transformation system I created, these were the bones of it. And because everyone's gonna have a different journey, I think there's things across the line. Like you'll hear all the gurus with their morning routines, and it's all the same, right? Meditation, journaling, learning, planning, like those are like consistent throughout. But this is this is the why, because it prepares you.

emotionally, metaphysically, to step into your day, And every day in that process I say, I'm designing my day. I'm thinking ahead of time, what do I want this to look like? So nothing excites me more than it's starting to happen in the group now. Like I've this whole year has been designing these pieces, right? So you come in, you get the alter ego GPT and you get this little life coaching repository.

Pocket and she's like seeing you. You're like, I am seeing. my God. And then you build your alter ego, like your alter ego, like your slayer, like you put her on, right? Your brookster, like these, this other identity that you aren't yet. And you can't, like your red alert brain is going to stop you from being there. And the alter ego just bypasses that shit. It's just, it's another tool. Like you might not even have to attack.

When you put on your alter ego, So you do that, and then at some point you're ready for something a little bit more. You're like, all right, I got my alter ego. I'm locked and loaded, I'm ready to go, Like what's next layer? I'm like, glad you asked, So then I've got the game changer tools. Like every month, dropping a new tool in the in my premium community. It's like the next level in, And then you're like, okay, all right, give me, I'm ready. I'm re I want.

To show up for this every day. And this is where you step into what feels hard and so glorious. You guys, there isn't glory without the challenge to get there, Like without overcoming our brains that want to keep us safe, without overcoming all the obstacles in our path, Your obstacles are just your path to success. Like little stones you're you're dropping on the way up the mountain,

my whole weight loss journey, for example, like it having lost the hundred and twenty pounds and really being from who I was and how I created my life, and then moving to an environment that I had lost so much control over and to stepped into it fully being that person. And

I stepped out of that persona, And stepped into this unhealthier version of me one little step at a time. So it's easy to go the other way too, And I was keeping an eye on it. And I just kept saying, What is going on here? that whole period though allowed me to hire a naturopath, like really figure out what was going on in my body because it was so much more than just food. And in fact,

Some of the healthy food I was eating was hurting me. And that's not going to be the case for you guys. This is why I don't talk about food and what I do is fasting, any of that here, really. I mean, I'm happy if you want to ask me, but you're going to be like, okay, that's of no use to you because you don't have all this fucking shit in your body. I finally just had all the toxin tests I had.

mold testing and all and I have like seven different strains of it, you guys. So it's just been a whole different journey for me.

It's my favorite shirt. When I wear this shirt, I've got my hella was boring shirt on. When I wear this out, I'll forget about it. And usually like young guys, they really like this shirt. Like in their 20s, they're like, so I just start laughing. I'm like, why are they laughing at me? And they'll be like, yeah. Right? Like it's just it's a feel good shirt. Like everyone appreciates it. Okay. So back to my six month reflection. And then we're gonna do

what I want it to look like going forward. Okay. So, so I'm just starting to monetize if we're gonna get into the business Brookster speak for a little bit. 'Cause you already know I'm slowly I'm I'm down thirty pounds

I'm maybe like 10 pounds behind where I like set out my goals, but I kinda always do that, you guys. I don't let it fuck with me that I set a 20-pound goal and I lost 15. I'm all I lost 15 because I know the journey isn't linear. I lost 120 pounds, it being up and down the whole time. And there being a time around 80 pounds or so that I was like, I I don't know, I think I'm good, right?

And I think as you adjust on your journey, that happens. And as you transform, you're gonna have times where you go dormant. I just had one of the girls in our group, I know she was gone a little bit. I reached out and she's like, you know, I've just been out of sorts, I've been frustrated with myself and just not feeling myself. and I could see her growing in the group. I'm like, you're transforming. It's hard, It's like you are that friggin' caterpillar trying to get out of the cocoon.

And it's not easy to come out the butterfly. I can't tell you how many dark nights of the soul I've been through on this transformation quest because now that I know how to transform, I just don't stop. Even when I was in rate weight regain, you guys, and in those two years of like at a job and trying to figure it out and trying to make happy with all the things like getting my feet in the earth and it just attacking me, Because I was the universe is like, nope, not your path, not your path, not your path.

Like you had to exp I had experience that, there were all of these times that just were like, but it's so much transformation in them because they were always growing. And I won't stop because I know the process, Vision, create the future, take the baby steps, one little step each day. Don't get in perfectionism. Like all of these things just add up, And adding in tools like

tapping, the emotional freedom technique, the meditation, uncovering thoughts to even rewire that and rewiring thoughts. I can go on and on, you guys. I'm then like, I can't wait to share so many game changers. And I'm picking up new ones all the time, like really diving into visioning this week this year. I'm doing a a whole visioning, like teaching people how to vision because I think we read the books, it's the same with tapping.

re read the books or we do a couple of videos or whatever, but we don't under if when you don't know the how and the whole thing doesn't click, at least for me, like putting it into action helps start to make it part of my life. And you gather these skills. And then when you come in the VIP experience into the Me First group where we do the the planning ahead of time, the using your smart brain and watching your fire alarm brain, your survival brain try to stop you.

She's trying to cock block you from a good time, that survival brain. She doesn't know it though. She thinks she's keeping you safe. And meanwhile, all the glory is just a waiting over the other way. But she wants to keep you safe in the Netflix and the food and the wine and whatever's holding you back from getting the thing. She wants to keep you over here.

So weight loss goal, thirty pounds,

I said that like that's no big deal. You guys, I lost fucking 30 pounds this year. Look at my face in this video compared to the one six months ago. that's gonna just keep happening because I am doing this. I already talk about myself. I'm already skinny. Like people can't tell me I'm not. I'm like, that goal's already splayed.

I d that's just done. Like my body, this symptom is just already taken care of. Now my body's just catching up to who that is. Piece of cake, Here we go. with my business goals and money goals and money goals in the sense of this. I was talking through business structure and what do I want to look like and kind of like how do I wanna set things up? And it just was

So cle like I don't want this big empire. I don't want this big sales team. I don't want like all that shit. You know what I want? I want like a community of badass women that are learning and growing together

And I want the freedom to be able to travel and do what I want. And maybe we have events or workshops. By the way, my Aussie posse we have a woman that's got this beautiful, like I don't even know, it's like a complex in Australia and it's got like a pond and a pool and a this beautiful veranda, and they're all like

It's like retreat at Lou's house, right? And like so I'm like that kind of shit. Like how fun I could just get on a plane and go pop out and do events, you know? that's fun. Like hanging out with people, you know? I know I will have a team at some point. I wanna bring Lexi on. She's learning how to video edit. It should be my little I'm like just

Honey, we can go work in New York City if we want, or go work in Scotland, or like the world is our oyster. Let's fucking go, And who knows what it's gonna look like. I remember I used to have this vision out here that was Namaslayer headquarters. I'll need to show you guys. I'll get a video of that so I can drop it in. and then that was like my little lair, my little house over there in the mountain. And it was gonna have like a yoga center and it just

it's that's gone. I don't know. I just like that just kinda sounds like work to me, And not that I'm opposed to work.

Just ask Lexi, I'm a beast. That's all I've been doing is working. And I love it. I just love it. I love creating stuff on the computer. I really do. And I love creating new experiences for my badasses to get some of this joy in their life, to get some of this like

this feeling you get when the world is full of infinite possibilities and you are the creator of it and you're in your driver's seat and you're co-creating, right? Co-creating with the universe, God, whatever you want to call it. And what if it's all just so fun? And what if it's this game we play and your job is to try as many things as you can is fail your way to whatever that is that tickles your fancy? What if that's your whole job here? Because it is

What if it's that simple and we make it hard and complicated? You know, and I think of this like business stuff because I'm trying all kinds of stuff. I'm launching things, making things, things aren't working, things are working, right? And it's not losing sight of that. It's like when you have one sales launch or run, not quitting and giving up, being like, Okay, that didn't work. What dra what do I need to tweak? What direction do I need to go? Because I know.

I what I can help people with. I have been doing it for years. I've helped hundreds of women, I still get messages from women I helped seven years ago, what does that look like when you allow yourself and you expand your capacity and your capability to fail? the more times I fail,

The faster I get to my goal. Same with weight loss, I d not banging your head against the wall doing the same, doing the same thing over and over. That's not what I'm talking about, It's adjusting. You know, when airplanes on autopilot, I who talked I think I heard this on like Abraham Hicks. He talks about how that airplane flies from on autopilot from like Hawaii to the mainland in this constant 1% adjustment because of curvature of the Earth.

And like this is us, you guys. It's a constant 1% adjustment. And that's why the whole process I created is 1% every day. What can you do that one little thing? I remember Googling how to build a website on the toilet at work. That's all the time I had for when I first built my business. what are the one tiny little thing you can do each day to get you that much closer to your goals, that much closer to your next failure? How much more

fun is that then you thinking, I failed again. Look, I can never do that. All I do is fail. to that that good old fuck it eating or a Monday or I'll start Monday, why even get up and bother? I'm never good enough. I'm never gonna get there. I'm never gonna do it. What if that one day makes all the difference? What if that one thing you went to learn was the thing that changed the trajectory of your life? This was why I try everything now. Everything.

'Cause I went to try meditation, I was like, well, this is bullshit, change my life. I tried the morning pages. Well, this is bullshit, changed my life. these are the game changers I'm teaching in the in the group, in the premium group. Because these things you don't you gotta try them for yourself. It might not be your thing. But if you don't try it, If you're like, that's not for me, that doesn't work, yeah, it's not gonna work for you because you fucking try it.

Okay, so what do we want the next six months to look like? Let's do six months and then I'll try to come back around Christmas and do another mountaintop little podcast here. So the next six months, you guys, all the pieces of my business are starting to come together, which has so much to do with everything, with weight loss and everything, because it's all part of my joy life. It's all part of

And this is why, you know, when people come in and I was setting out, I've really been thinking this week about the women that are going to come and really enjoy being on this ride. You don't yet know it's about so much more than the wait, if it's you're starting to get a tinkle of an idea. A tinkle? It sounds like you're gonna go take a piss somewhere. You're starting to get an idea.

that you know what, I think it's I know it's so much more than this. You're getting curious, you you know, you feel like you might be in that space of maybe apathy or misery a little bit to where you're just not feeling lit up about life. come in and be able to start to have a different perspective and get away from judging yourself so harshly and start to dream and play again, that, my friends, you're my people.

Like let's have fun. Let's bring joy to our lives. Let's like what does that look like? And we lose weight in the process. You're not gonna come in and get a fucking diet. Yeah, how many diets have you fucking had? A hundred million diets? Yeah. Welcome to the club. I'm changing my diet again. I had to change your diet is how you eat. I've had to change it again. You know? And that's that's gonna shit's gonna happen.

What is good for one person isn't good for another. It's not the same microbiome. You don't have the whole thing going on. And as we get older, the more sensitive this is. This is why what worked for me 20 years ago doesn't work now. What worked for me three years ago when I lost my weight doesn't work for me right now. so much of it is rooted in being the observer, being the detective of my life, playing and having something.

fun and being in oneness with the earth, with the universe, with be other beings, Be like having my spiritual self like dialed in.

So in the next six months, let's take down another 30 pounds. I like this pace, but I also know Q4 for me is typically a hibernation period in my life. So November, December in particular. I'm gonna say 30 more pounds. That will put me down. I was two ninety-two when I sat up here in January. I'm two I'll be two sixty-two this week. I know I will, I'm there.

that would put us in like the two thirties at the end of the year. And then I'm in pole position before I move back to Arizona in the next six months to be back in Wonderland. And I feel really good in Wonderland. I'm five nine. I like my body feels good. I remember being in the one nineties and I did get in the one seventies and I look back, I'm like, my God, I was so thin. And then I had revised my goal from there.

And I think this happens as you lose weight because your brain is still kind of catching up with your body, you become a new version of you every 30 pounds, Like you change something about how you eat, how you move, you accelerate things. so I want to try to get back to the pool again now that winter season is over in Hawaii. So I want that to be in my next six months.

Also, just trying to get out there. I'm doing some hypnosis and tapping around allergies in particular because I fucking miss being in the earth and being outside. Not gonna lie. I have figured out how to be exuberantly happy in my one little room. And that when I was listening back to myself at the beginning of the year,

was doing it right as being outside, but I just kept g having a flare up and a flare up and a flare up. So just dialing myself back and staying as inside as much as I could. but I really want to get away from that fight or flight response, just thinking about stepping into an environment. Like I'm causing so much of that myself. So I'm using EFT tapping for that. So these next six months, I want to heal around.

allergies and exposure to shit and all of that stuff. Another 30 pounds down. with my business, I have 450 people in my community right now in midlife badassy that are going through this alter ego process that some of those people are going to be ready to head into me first. The transformation chamber just point that term this week. That came out of everything that I've been doing with the EFT work.

And I just love it. Like, don't you love this idea of in a moment you can have a transformation chamber, You see your your survival brain kick in, she's trying to keep you in bed under the covers, not get out to the mountain, and you can just start tapping, I know I really don't want to get out of bed right now. I just want to stay under these covers. I love myself how I am, And you eventually talk yourself out of bed as you're neutralizing your fight or flight, because

That's your survival brain trying to keep you safe, trying to keep you under the covers so you don't have to feel discomfort on the other side of getting out of your nice cozy cocoon or going out to walk, even though you know you feel so good when you get there, And this is why we're all like, I don't know why I can't show up for myself. It's just that's survival brain trying to keep you safe, So using those techniques for physical shit,

for allergies and all of that. I wanna work on that more. business wise, I'm like at virtually no income. You know, I have some people in my membership, but it's barely a blip on the radar. And I want to be to ten K month within the the six month timeframe,

But I have to tell you, all the hypnosis stuff I do, all of the limiting belief and mind worth stuff I do, I don't know why I sit down and I see $500,000 and I just weep and I'm like, my God. It's like when I saw myself so skin, like, my God, that joy, that gratitude, like I can't believe I fucking did it. Like that's insane. I can still feel and hear like all of this, these blocks coming in, even as I say that.

So working through all of that shit, any of that that's keeping me limited by whatever, like people will think negatively of you or that you're greedy, or like all of that shit in there. Or people just think you're a money hungry bitch. Like, yeah, you're a freedom seeking bitch. That's what you are, how can you just feel so fucking abundant? And you guys, money.

is a frequency of abundance, right? It's like how the universe deals it out. And it gives us the freedom to experience and be in the earth and create things and travel and like all of that stuff,

It's not holding the dollar bill. It's this experience. It's going and working in Edinburgh if I want to in New York City and go hang with Mary for a month down in Miami or when she's in Mexico or I did that. I finally got my passport, you guys.

my first passport, I was like, Well, if I'm gonna be nomad adding, I need a passport. Now, mind you, I can't go anywhere for a year, but I'm like, what are all these little steps? And this comes out of this process I with the me first gut every quarter. I sit down, I'm like, what's the dream? What's the vision? All of this stuff I'm sharing here with you guys and fill it in in more detail and what are all the little things I would need to do for that to happen. I need to figure out how long I can work over there or how

how do I get in the country? if I rent a place in the middle of the city, do I need transportation? what does this look like? all of these little things start to move it into place. It's like when I bought the RV and left corporate America the first time, I was like just fucking around. I'm like, Hey Erin, you wanna go? One of my girlfriends I was like, Hey, you wanna go look at some RVs? She was like, sure.

She but she was very serious about it and I was like, I'm just fucking around, right? but no. We were like test driving shit. my God. I stopped for RVs. We had so much fun, And I was like, you know, maybe I really can do this.

spiritually for the next six months. I've really been getting back into my silent mantra meditation and I'm gonna teach a month of meditation in my group. That's gonna be one of the game changers I'm sharing with everybody. I want to while I'm here in Arizona, I want to freshen up my mantra with TM. I I teach for primordial sound meditation and also practice TM. I kind of use them interchangeably now.

with meditation, I find it's like you gotta figure what works for you. But I know I like need a reset. they say every now and then you need a reset. I've gotten away from my afternoon practice, and that just like lights my ass up when that's in my life. I used to feel it in my body when I needed it. I really want to cultivate that again. And then I want tapping to become a habit every day. And I've been using these little cards I have, but I want to be to

tapping th into my transformation chamber. I'm like this I'm dead serious about this practice, And I

I want to keep building my faith that the universe has always just got my back for lack of a better term, And I know it always always provides, but I want it I want to believe it's providing what I'm co creating and that that's not gonna be just enough anymore. financially, just getting by isn't what our goals are universe.

universe our goals are to be so fucking abundant. I can't believe I have all this I just can't believe it. that I can literally just go out do anything if I want, anywhere I want.

What else do I want? Because you gotta speak it, you guys. You gotta dream it. You gotta play it. So I'm gonna work in different places around the world. And I want to be free from the fear and terror of constantly having a flare up or a reaction that's gonna be here. That's gonna be gone. That's gone. I am just at one with the planet. Yeah, I'm one with the planet.

And then what else six months from now? Millie goes off to college. I really want to be able to set her up for success and support her in whatever way I can, financially, emotionally, all of that. I want her to have those tools to help her regulate herself, And the same with Minnie Slayer, of course, she's a grown-ass adult, so that's kind of on her.

that's it, you guys. I mean, I think universe, I think it's a pretty simple ask. Now it's just going, remember I have that podcast called the Amazon Boxes Guinea.

And this was gonna be the longest podcast ever because I'm never leaving this fucking mountain. But in the Amazon box is skinny, the concept is you don't doubt that your Amazon box was gonna be at your door with your package in it. And in fact, you're shocked when it isn't. That's the belief that I wanna have around this. So this whole next six months I'm building this belief around this life where I'm this jet setter.

the world is your oyster. What does it look like? What are you creating? Or are you in so much fear of not providing

not having the comforts in life that you aren't dreaming beyond you're not listening to the whispers of your soul. 'cause it's a it's a game. It's a game for sure.

I think it's lot of fun when you get in the game.