Refined by Fire, Reestablished by Faith

What if your next chapter isn’t about starting over, but starting from your truest foundation? We open up about a birthday that isn’t balloons—it’s becoming. After a year defined by refinement, the glossy “glow-up” gave way to grit, to a quiet that burned off false roles, and to the kind of honesty that lets you hear your own voice again. We talk about what was lost, what was found, and why presence feels better than applause when the timeline stops dictating your worth.

Refinement taught hard lessons: loving others while neglecting yourself looks like care but feels like erosion; bold prayers don’t override old fear until you release expired versions of you; “boundaries” can be burnout with lipstick unless they’re rooted in self-respect. We unpack choosing peace over performance, stillness over strategy, and softness over armor. Softness here isn’t fragility—it’s strength that refuses to harden. We name the tension of crying while you keep showing up, and the relief of anchoring your identity to something deeper than titles or timelines. There’s a tender reckoning with the truth that healing often whispers, grief and grace can share a room, and no honest season is wasted.

From there, we step into re-establishing: not a reset, but a return to who you are at the root. Re-establishing means planting yourself, pacing for harvest rather than hype, and building from truth, not performance. We explore practical shifts—clearer boundaries, slower yeses, and a posture of presence that steadies you when answers are late. If you’ve been through a year that scraped you clean, this conversation offers language, courage, and a gentle roadmap for what comes next. If it resonates, share it with someone who’s in their refining season, hit follow, and leave a review to tell us what you’re re-establishing this year.

Chapters

• 1:11 Birthday Week, Deeper Intention
• 1:51 The Year of Refinement
• 2:38 Choosing Peace Over Performance
• 4:00 Gaining Presence Amid Loss
• 7:04 Radical Self-Honesty and Softness
• 8:51 Keep Going Through the Unknown
• 11:27 Embracing Re-Establishing, Not Arrival

Transcript

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Hey hey, y'all, it's my birthday week. I'm coming up on double fours. You hear me? And so this episode, it's personal. Not because I need to share all of my wins, not because I want to make a moment about me, but because I want to honor the version of me that made it to this birthday. The version that refined herself in silence. The version that fell apart privately and rebuilt without applause. The version that didn't just survive but started re-establishing. See, this past year my word was refined. And baby, let me tell you something. I thought it was going to be about glow-ups and grace, but baby, it was about grit. The kind of grit that shows up when the answers don't. The kind of fire that burns away the roles you used to play just to be accepted. The kind of quiet that teaches you how to hear yourself again without the noise of people's expectations. I had to choose peace over performance, stillness over strategy, and softness, even when I felt like I had to stay armored up. Refinement isn't just about getting better, it's about letting go of what's not even you in the first place. So what did I gain? I didn't know that letting go would bring me closer to myself. I lost things, people, plans, positions. But what I did gain was peace, and I gained presence. I learned that grief and grace can live in the same room, that healing isn't always loud, sometimes it whispers, and that God doesn't waste a single season. So yeah, there were days when I questioned everything, but even in that, I was being anchored, anchored in truth, anchored in identity, anchored in a version of me that wasn't tied to applause, the title or the timeline. And so in this season, in this season of re-establishing, who even just thinking about it now begins to bring tears to my eyes because I know that all that I have been through up until this point, and for God to give me this word re-establish, I can only imagine. I know that God is getting ready to blow my mind. And so now that I'm not just walking into a new age, I'm walking into a new assignment, I'm walking into a new alignment, I'm walking into a new anointing. And this season of reestablishing, it's not about starting over, but starting from the foundation of who I truly am, not who I was forced to be. Re-establishing is about planting yourself, not rushing the harvest. It's about becoming rooted in what matters and building from truth. See, this birthday isn't about balloons, it's becoming. Oh, and you thought that I was going to end this episode and not be all the way real with you? So here's what this year actually taught me. That I was still loving people harder than I was loving myself. That I was showing up for everybody else's needs while silently hoping someone would notice mine. I was praying bold prayers, but still living from pieces of old fear. And I had mastered the art of being strong, but I hadn't fully given myself permission to be soft. I thought I had boundaries, but what I really had was burnout with lipstick on. I thought I had healed, but I realized I was just functioning well through the pain. I learned that it was easy to sound wise when you're helping others, but the real work, the real work is applying that same wisdom to yourself. And the hardest truth of all, I was still asking for divine purpose while holding on to expired versions of me. This year broke me open so I could finally stop additioning and start being. See, that's the core truth. That's the story that no one wants to talk about. That's the story that even when I am pouring out all that I have, that I'm silently sometimes crying because there are areas in me that still need work. But I still showed up. And I needed every time that I showed up, every time that I poured out, there was something else that was being birthed down on the inside of me. There was something else that was being refined down on the inside of me. There was something else that was still being tweaked and worked on, but I was still showing up. Because life does not just stop when things get hard. You have to keep going. Sometimes you'll cry while you're doing it. And as you begin to level up, as you begin to come into the version of you, as you begin to walk into the rooms that you are so destined to be in, there will be times when you just don't have the answer. But you've already done enough work so that when you show up, that it doesn't show on your face. That's the truth. That's the moment when you begin to answer your heart and say hello. That's the moment when you can no longer lie to yourself. That's the moment when you can look at you in the mirror and say that I'm not okay, but I will be. See, some of you all could have gone through your refining season last year as well, and you know that it didn't always feel good. Being refined does not mean that it feels good, and I'm not saying that there were that the year felt bad because there were times, there were moments, but it was a hard year, it was an honest year to myself, and I needed that, so that when I step into this season of re-establishing, that all that I didn't need had already been refined and burned off, is there still work to be done? Absolutely, because our goal is to get a little bit better each and every day, and so the way that we go about doing that is to realize that we've just gotten to another stop in our destination, but we have not arrived yet. So until next time, this is the hearts.