Between Healing and Building: How Inner Child Work, Therapy, and Online Visibility Are Reshaping My Relationship With Myself

In this solo episode of The Visibility Standard, I’m pulling back the curtain on where I’ve been—emotionally, professionally, and spiritually.

I share what it’s really been like to launch and grow a business while actively doing inner child and teen healing, how therapy has fundamentally shifted the way I speak to myself, and the messy, vulnerable reality of being visible online without abandoning my heart. This episode isn’t a highlight reel—it’s an honest snapshot of becoming.

Inside, we talk about:

• Real-time reflections on my healing and business journey
• Why inner child and teen work still hits so hard in adulthood
• How therapy is helping me rewire self-criticism into self-trust
• What joy has looked like lately—through rest, play, and unexpected teachers

If you’re in a season of figuring it out—emotionally, relationally, or professionally—this episode is a reminder that growth rarely looks linear, polished, or Instagram-ready.

You don’t need to have it all mapped out.
 You don’t need to heal before you build.
 And you’re not behind—you’re in process.

Transcript

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I have been itching to release a solo episode. Welcome back to All Our Parts. I am your host, Jasmine Proctor. And if you're new here, welcome. I'm so excited to have you. I just want to give a huge thank you first and foremost for people who have been tuning in and even my guests that I've had on the show. You all are adding major value and I'm also loving the feedback that I'm getting. And so please like continue doing It means everything to me. It's really special. But I just wanted to check in. I wanted to give a little update of where I am and how things have been going for me. I have been hard launching my business lately, and I have been really just focusing on that area. And, you know, actually, I had a solo episode recorded the other night, but it felt super emo that is one of the challenges that I'm facing right now with showing up online is showing up authentically and showing up how I feel because, I mean, that's what the show is for. That's what my business is around is there are no bad parts of ourselves. than being vulnerable. And I think it all comes down to like vulnerability. You know, I don't know how to share some things like I want to and I know it would resonate. I just don't know how to share some things yet, but I'm working on it and really processing it. That's where I'm at with just like content and trying to find that balance of showing up as myself, sharing myself and also just being very scared because putting myself out there every day is very hard as someone who does not use social media like in their personal life really besides to send memes to like their friends I wasn't someone that would take a lot of photos growing up and didn't really like to be in photos have in the back of my mind like this would be really good content and so it's just it's such a different shift it's such a different perspective for me that I'm growing in to but I really enjoy it I really enjoy the people that I've been connecting with just creating like a community I think is like the best way that I can put it I really have enjoyed building a community of like-minded people and yeah personally I have been healing we talk a lot about the inner child I have been working on the inner teenager and she needs a lot of love she needs a lot of attention and it has been a whirlwind of a process to be processing my teenage self I have worked very hard to remove myself from those emotions and those feelings and so it's really interesting to reprocess some things I've really forgotten and I tried really hard to forget and being able to view it from a different perspective and actually feeling so safer in my body to explore that and come back to present has been really meaningful. I also have the best therapist like in the world. I want to bring something up because I see on threads and I know people just post shit sometimes, but I see on threads people like, oh, if you like your therapist so much, they're not challenging you enough. I think you should like your therapist. And I think you can like your therapist and they can call you out like they can hold you accountable but this idea that we are supposed to have mixed feelings towards our therapist it just does not it does not resonate for me and might resonate for you you might need to have a disorganized relationship with your therapist I would like to have an organized one I would like to have a secure one and that is one I do have love her she's a queen such a fan and if we didn't have the rapport that we do I like I don't think there's some stuff that I would be talking about right now but it's literally our relationship is what it is and so I get to show up and say you know what this actually kind of fucked me up a little bit and it's so it's a really disorienting experience and I think when I'm a bit more out of it I will definitely share more let's just say it is a It's amazing to see where I am now and to see that against every freaking odd, I managed to learn how to build relationships with other people, learn how to show up for other people and have like an ounce of emotional intelligence. I'm not perfect and I work on it every day, but I have, I'm very impressed with the person I work with. And that as someone who's very hard on themselves, as someone who often feels like I'm not good enough, or I'm not doing something well enough, or it's not perfect, so it's not good, and therefore I don't want to put it out. As someone who sits with those thoughts constantly, it is also amazing to be able to look at what I'm processing right now in therapy and being like, holy shit, you've come so far. And I get to hold space for teenage me. And I get to say like, oh my God, look, I love you. I feel so bad for you. And I love that I get to show up for you now. And it's really just so special. It's very hard, but it's really special. Other than that, you know, things have been good. I've really just been focusing on investing Be more present in my personal relationships, being much more intentional. And I think going with the flow a bit more. I think I've had a lot of anxiety around releasing a solo episode because I often don't know what to talk about. And I realized growing up, I always had to know and I always had to have the right answer. answer I all I couldn't change my mind I couldn't there was a lot that I couldn't do around knowing and so it's very uncomfortable but it's very exciting to be able to record right now and like say I have I have so much like going on there's like some really really great days and there's some really really like not so great days and riding the wave of both and accepting that both will come and go as they please And knowing that the same day doesn't have to, the day doesn't have to look the same every day and I get a new 24 hours. And so I've been really leaning into that mindset that one day can look differently from the other. But yeah, really just, and I think when I'm not like fostering relationships in my life, I'm really just spending time with myself, relaxing, watching TV. I'm very excited that The Real Housewives is coming back this week, Salt Lake City. I have been yapping about the secret lives of Mormon wives to anyone that will listen. Yeah, I am doing okay. And, you know, even I think the difference for like solo episodes for me is that I think being in the interviewer spot, there is a level at which I hold myself and I'm like, is this episode providing value? Is this episode giving the audience what they need to like show up in their week? And so a lot of my solo episodes, especially when I first started my show, it was just me talking, sharing about my experiences. I want to do that more often and consistently. And in order to do that, I have to get out of my own head. I've got to trust that even what I'm sharing off the cuff adds a lot of value as well. And I think I want to share just for anyone that's listening that like it does get clearer. I feel like I know so many people in like a limbo spot, a transitionary spot and trying to figure out how to navigate the murky waters and trying to figure out how to make the best choice. And honestly, like I can, I just want to tell you, you don't have to have it all mapped out in front of you you've just got to make the next right choice and then you keep making the next right choice eventually you'll have everything that you need and also know that you have everything you need already in yourself I love pickleball I'm waiting for Hoka and Nike to sponsor me I'm gonna put it out there in the universe and that someone's listening to this and wants to send me a pickleball PR box But it's my favorite way to spend Monday. I start a new week tonight. And so I'm really excited. But yeah, I think that I wanted to share this because I welcome authenticity, honesty, and reflection in my show on my social media pages, even in the therapy space. And I need to practice doing it more often for myself as it relates to myself. And I want to encourage anyone that's listening right now that you are loved and you are so valued and you are enough. And if you need a friend, a buddy, happy to chat. I'm happy to listen and talk to you. I am currently accepting new clients in Maryland and Washington, D.C. And so if you are finding yourself needing a cool therapist to talk about all things reality TV and depression, I'm your girl. So I'll talk to you all later. I have some really exciting interviews coming up. I have interviews that I've got to share with you all. And so I'm so, so, so excited to continue creating this This has truly been a passion project come to life. And so yeah, I'll talk to you later.