What If Cravings Are Old Memories Asking To Be Heard

A cinnamon bun shouldn’t be able to hijack your whole week and yet sometimes it does. We’re sharing a candid health update that starts with a sugar-heavy stretch of muffins, cupcakes, donuts, and baked goods and ends with a clearer map of how our bodies speak up through digestion, sleep, circulation, and even tight fascia in the neck and head. When we ignore the early whispers, we feel the consequences later, so we slow down and get honest about what the symptoms are really pointing to. 

We also talk gut health and the microbiome after eating spoiled sauerkraut and feeling “off” for weeks. With support from a health food store expert, we explore gentle probiotics, why rebalancing gut bacteria can take months, and how to use simple day-to-day tracking to connect what we ate yesterday to how we feel today. Along the way, we hold space for bigger questions about hormones, circulation changes, and the lingering curiosity many of us have about post-pandemic health shifts. 

The heart of the story is the “why” behind our choices: finishing half-eaten pastries while walking around town, not wanting to waste food or money, and the childhood memory that can still drive adult cravings. We bring it back to practical mindful eating, including chewing slowly, eating with attention, and choosing moderation without self-punishment. If you’ve been stuck in the loop of knowing what doesn’t work for your body but doing it anyway, this is your reminder that awareness is a skill you can build. 

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Osha Rose 0:00

When this happened the first time, it was the end of 2024. And it was December. And I had just gotten through November where I was eating a bunch of um these types of foods, just like pure sugar, like pastries and, you know, baked goods only. Like just, but I was eating a lot, like more than more than a healthy amount. And I remember then the day before I felt this, um, the first time I had made a dozen muffins and I had, or cupcakes, and we were going to bring them to a family gathering that didn't end up happening. So my daughter and I just kind of ate them in the car. And then when I felt this way, it was the first day after that that I had ever like purely fasted on broth. Like I make my own chicken broth with scraps and bones of chicken. And I just drank that for two days. And I realized during that reset period a bunch of things. Like I realized that when I'm only eating processed flours and sugars, um, these are the symptoms that I have, but it's it's also circulatory. So I'll feel like flush in my cheeks, I'll feel um

Sugar Binge Then Broth Reset

Osha Rose 1:14

like my heartbeat will be a little different. And the amount of sleep I get will determine how much I'm able to, I think, process that food, like internally, just assimilate it and get rid of what is junk. And then, of course, my my bowel movement will be different. But right now, what I'm dealing with is I ate some pickled cabbage, like some sauerkraut that was bad right before um, like probably like two months ago. And I didn't put two and two together at first. I just felt really terrible the next day in my whole body. But then when I realized I was doing these weird burps, I was like, oh, it was the sauerkraut. And this woman at a health food store helped me realize that the bacteria, the fluoride, every the floral, like the what's going on in my stomach and my gut was off. And so I've been taking this variation of a probiotic, a very mild one, because they usually give me some sort of an upset too of rooterai. And she told me, like this one at the health food store, like it's gonna take six months possibly to rebalance your system. And it's interesting because now I can see through my bowel movement, like whether or not what I ate the day before is affecting those cultures in my stomach in a positive or negative way. Like, are they growing or are they balancing out? So, welcome to the Super bloom podcast. This is a special episode where I share an update to some

Bad Sauerkraut And Gut Rebalancing

Osha Rose 2:46

of the episodes before, where I was digging into some health stuff that was coming up for me in my physical body. And after working with a life coach, evaluating what I was eating, meeting with an Ayurvedic practitioner and a medical nurse practitioner, what I've discovered is everything in moderation. And what I mean by that is when I'm sleeping too much, when I'm not sleeping enough, when I'm eating a lot of processed foods or sugars, and I'm not eating enough, you know, healthy whole foods. My body lets me know. But I also have this contemplation around circulation and hormones and how they're all affected, because a lot is different in my body than before. I had a child, but I got pregnant during a pandemic and at a time when this man-created virus was put into

Everything In Moderation After Support

Osha Rose 3:53

all of our bodies. So I can't help but wonder, knowing that the way the COVID virus affected our circulatory systems and our cardiovascular system, if, like what if somehow it is all related? And when I now eat highly processed sugar, like a donut or a cinnamon bun or something that I know is homemade and you know, made with love, but still is going to have an effect because of the high sugar content on my body. I notice that if too much of that is put into my system, I get to this place where the fascia, but like right now, the fascia behind my neck and head, it just feels tight, like something's pulling. But there were clues for three days before this where I started to feel like tension in my neck and shoulders, a little bit of soreness in my low back. All of these things I have felt off and on now for the past year and a half when I eat certain foods. So, what I want to talk about today is what this means. Because when we can dig into why we're doing the things we're doing, I am finding it's helping me actually start to make wiser decisions.

Rockport Pastries And Eating On Autopilot

Osha Rose 5:17

So I didn't necessarily do this the other day when I when I got the pastries, but looking back and in reflection, it's still good. Whenever you, whenever you choose to reflect, it's still good. But I bought the donut for my daughter because she is able to get a donut and eat as much as she feels is enough and then be done with it. I also got a cinnamon bun. I got myself like some like a goat cheese beautiful um egg burrito with avocado, and it was so good. But then I decided to also get this cinnamon bun to go because I wanted her to try it. I wanted her to like it. But I kind of knew she wasn't going to. And in reflection, I have this memory of being eight or nine years old, living on Cleveland Street, and this um Uncle Mo's store where I could get a cinnamon bun grilled with butter as I waited for the bus. I remember having wet hair and going in there and eating quickly this delicious covered in icing um cinnamon bun. And so part of me looking back realizes I want her to have those memories too of like this like deli delicious sweet treat. But what I'm realizing is when it comes to everything in moderation, my mom wasn't giving me that food. My mom was very consciously feeding me salad and with a beautiful homemade dressing and chips and salsa as my you know crunchy treat and popcorn with yeast on it and weed a bicks, which we could put, you know, on this like log of cereal. We could put a little bit of sugar. But she wasn't giving us those pastries on a regular basis. Um, occasionally I'd go to my father's house where he lived with my grandmother, and we would make, she was French Canadian, and we would make pastries

Childhood Cinnamon Bun Memory And Scarcity

Osha Rose 7:17

together, and I'd eat salami there, and I'd have, you know, ginger ale. So I would get some of these sweet treats sometimes, but it wasn't enough and it wasn't consistent enough. So I'm realizing there's a part of me that still thinks, A, I won't get it again. So it's like we buy the donut, we buy the cinnamon bun. She doesn't eat all of the donut or want the rest of the cinnamon bun, and then I find myself eating them. But I also know that this is what my body does to react to it. So it's like overriding parts of my system that are saying to me, don't do this in the moment. I'm just I'm I'm beginning to notice what's happening and why. And looking back, I was carrying the bags of the half eaten pastries and thinking, I don't want to carry these anymore. We're like walking around town in this cute little town called Rockport, and there's a bunch of people out, and I've got the rest of this, you know, drink that she had, and this two bags, and I didn't want to carry them. So I started eating the pastries while we're walking. And the importance of eating consciously and chewing my food slowly and being aware of what my body is saying to me as I'm eating isn't something I have mastered yet, but it's something I really do want to get better at because there are signals coming from our body that we can't pay attention to if we're eating while paying attention to people on the sidewalk and walking and making sure your child isn't going somewhere. There, there, there aren't enough, like you can only do one thing at a time. So there isn't really a way to also be aware of what my body's saying to me in that moment. But I didn't want to throw them away. Like that's something looking back. I'm like, I didn't want to throw them away. Like I didn't want to waste the food. And they were already half eaten, so I couldn't like give them to someone else. But why not throw them away? Like, what is that? Is it because I didn't want to waste the money I spent or the food or both? And why buy them in the first place? Like, what was my driving force? Oh, that that memory, that longing for that childhood memory for my daughter to have. But I'm also realizing when I tell myself everything in moderation, then I can get the sweet treat and I can have that cinnamon bun. But then maybe I won't eat the whole thing. Maybe I'll be able to listen to my body and I'll say, oh, every single bite I'm going to be present with and I'm gonna chew instead of just inhaling it like somebody's gonna take it from me. Because I I honestly believe that's kind of what I used to do in the morning at the bus stop. Like I didn't want my mom, you could still see my house. Like, I didn't want my mom to see me eating it and tell me I can't have it. Oh, so it's like, and I'm I'm very much far away from that age today, like over 30 years. So to think that I still am holding on to this memory is kind of wild and it's affecting decisions I'm making. Um, but when this happened the first time, it was the end of 2024, and it was December, and I had just gotten through November where I was eating a bunch of um these types of foods, just like pure sugar, like pastries and you know, baked goods only. Like just, but I was eating a lot, like more than more than a healthy amount. And I remember then the day before I felt this, um, the first time I had made a dozen muffins and I had, or cupcakes, and we were going to bring them to a family gathering that didn't end up happening. So my daughter and I just kind of ate them in the car. And then when I felt this way, it was the first day after that that I had ever like purely fasted on broth. Like I make my own chicken broth with scraps and bones of chicken. And I just drank that for two days. And I realized during that reset period a bunch of things. Like I realized that when I'm only eating processed flours

Detox Diary Parasites And Food Triggers

Osha Rose 11:24

and sugars, um, these are the symptoms that I have, but it's it's also circulatory. So I'll feel like flush in my cheeks, I'll feel um like my heartbeat will be a little different. And the amount of sleep I get will determine how much I'm able to, I think, process that food, like internally, just assimilate it and get rid of what is junk. And then, of course, my my bowel movement will be different. But right now, what I'm dealing with is I ate some pickled cabbage, like some sauerkraut that was bad right before um, like probably like two months ago. And I didn't put two and two together at first. I just felt really terrible the next day in my whole body. But then when I realized I was doing these weird burps, I was like, oh, it was the sauerkraut. And this woman at a health food store helped me realize that the bacteria, the fluoride, every the floral, like the what's going on in my stomach and my gut was off. And so I've been taking this variation of a probiotic, a very mild one, because they usually give me some sort of an upset too of rooterai. And she told me, like, this one at the health food store, like it's gonna take six months possibly to rebalance your system. And it's interesting because now I can see through my bowel movement, like whether or not what I ate the day before is affecting those cultures in my stomach in a positive or negative way. Like, are they growing or are they balancing out? And I'm sharing all of this today because I very much have control over my health and well-being, and I see that now. And in order to make healthy, wiser decisions, it's important that I take the time to get clear on why I'm doing what I'm doing. Because then I'm I'm on top of it, I'm in front of it. It's not like, oh, I'm doing this thing and I don't know why. My body has to reap the repercussions of that. And then now when I'm not feeling healthy anymore, I deal with it. And whatever, we're all on our own path and journey and the way we we make decisions and finally answer, you know, the quiet calls of our body when it's still quiet, or whether we have to wait until it's screaming, like that, so be it. But I'm sharing all of this because I see that I'm also wanting to prove to myself that this is what's happening. And I know it is. Like I have all these little clips of this past year and a half of where I've been keeping a, I call it my detox diary. Because at one point I realized I have worms inside of me. We all do, we all have parasites. So I went and did this core um detox where I ate all these herbs that I researched and looked at my stool and found like rope worms in it. My daughter saw them. I have video of it. It's like wild to think that, you know, these worms are just living inside of us. But if you even just think of it metaphorically, like there's something in us that when we feed it the things that aren't necessarily healthy, this parasite will grow because we're feeding it what it thrives on. So when we when we think about how we feel when we're eating something, we can imagine feeding or not feeding that parasite. You know, does it does it feel good on our tongue and then terrible in our belly? Does it feel great all in the moment? You don't really notice right away what's going on in your stomach till the next day. Um, part of my journey has realized that the food I eat first thing needs to be fruit. And I went through all these different, you know, experiences of meats and eggs and cheese and bread and yogurt and things that just don't feel good or healthy in my body. All right, to be continued, but long story short, I am in charge of my health, everything in moderation, and realizing eating slowly, like this one woman who turned 100, her advice to the world to live a long life is chew slowly. And then we become aware of what's going on, and our body can talk to us and we can listen and we can understand why we're making the choices we're making and make them in a in an approach that's wise. It's wise for our body, our health, and our overall well being. All right, more to come. It's a superbloom , it's a super superbloom . Take care.