Coming Back Online
Honest talks on Weed, Clarity and coming back to yourself
Episodes
17 episodes
When Cannabis Stops Serving You: CHS, Dependence & Finding Your Way Back
In this episode, I’m talking openly about my experience with Cannabis Hyperemesis Syndrome (CHS), what it was like realizing cannabis was no longer serving me, and what can happen when you finally decide it’s time for a change.We’ll tal...
You Don’t Have to Hit Rock Bottom to Quit Weed
Maybe you’ve been smoking weed every day for years. Maybe you’ve told yourself you’re going to stop, only to find yourself smoking again a few hours later. And maybe you’re starting to realize that you don’t even enjoy it the way you used to. I...
From Rock Bottom to Purpose: Rebuilding My Life After 25 Years of Weed
n this deeply personal episode, I share the story I’ve never fully told—from the lowest point of my life to the mission that’s now giving me purpose. I open up about my divorce, quitting weed after 25 years, depression, suicidal thoughts, turni...
The Grief Nobody Talks About When You Quit Weed
Talking honestly about what happened when I finally quit smoking weed after 26 years.Nobody prepared me for the grief. Not just grieving the plant itself, but grieving the version of me that believed I needed it to get through life. I...
No Longer a Prisoner in my own Body
For years, I thought I was trying to escape stress, anxiety, boredom, and pain.What I eventually realized was that I was trying to escape myself.In this episode of Coming Back Online, I talk about what happened after quitting we...
Control the Controllable-Everything else is Noise
In this episode, we’re talking about one of the most powerful shifts you can make in your life — learning to focus on what you can actually control. We live in a world full of noise, unpredictability, and other people’s behavior, and most of it...
What serves you, What doesn't, and how to know the difference
In this episode, I’m responding directly to comments and messages from people going through all kinds of struggles—grief, divorce, depression, feeling stuck, feeling empty, and wondering what’s missing in their lives.We talk about the i...
Your Questions about Weed, Sobriety and Healing
In this episode, I’m answering some questions and messages I’ve been getting on social media about sobriety, healing, and what actually helped me quit smoking weed after struggling with it for a long time.I talk about some of the things...
Coming Back Online | My Story With Weed, Dependence & Trying to Find Myself Again
This is the first video episode of Coming Back Online — a podcast about long-term weed use, dependence, sobriety, mental clarity, and trying to reconnect with yourself after years of feeling disconnected.In this episode, I open up about...
Unfiltered thoughts on CHS, Dependence and my History with Weed
This episode is honestly just me talking.No heavy editing.No perfect structure.Just a real conversation about my history with weed, dependency, creativity, comfort, escape, and the role it played in my life for a long time.<...
The Addiction No One Talks About (Weed, Stagnation & Potential)
In this episode, I talk about a side of addiction that doesn’t get enough attention—the kind that doesn’t destroy your life overnight, but slowly keeps you stuck.After watching Anonymous People and reflecting on my own journey, I starte...
The Hidden Cost of Comfort: Unpacking Cannabinoid Hypermesis Syndrome, the Mind-Gut Connection
What if the thing you’ve been using to feel better… is actually what’s making you sick?In this episode, we unpack Cannabinoid Hyperemesis Syndrome (CHS) — a paradoxical condition where chronic cannabis use can lead to severe nausea, sto...
When Weed Stops Working: My 20-year Wake-Up Call
For over 20 years, weed was a constant part of my life.In this episode, I share why I finally decided to walk away from it — and the surprising backlash I’ve received online for talking openly about my experience.Some people hav...
When Weed Started Hurting Me: CHS, Anxiety and Learning Real Strength
In this episode of Coming Back Online, I share a deeply personal conversation about long-term cannabis use, Cannabinoid Hyperemesis Syndrome (CHS), and the connection between gut health, anxiety, and emotional regulation.For years, I di...
When Weed Stops Working: My 26-year relationship with Getting High
For 26 years, weed was part of my identity.I started smoking at 15.It felt cool. It felt freeing. It felt like it helped me cope.But somewhere along the way… it stopped working.In this episode, I talk honestly about ...
Listening to My Body: My Experience With CHS-Like Symptoms After Long-Term Weed Use
In this episode, I share my personal experience with long-term weed use and the symptoms I went through that resembled Cannabinoid Hyperemesis Syndrome (CHS). I want to be clear — I was never officially diagnosed. This is not medical advice. Th...