From Boys to Men: A Journey Through Masculinity
From Boys to Men is a podcast about the embodied journey of masculinity.
Season 1, titled UNCUT, focused on the raw and often unspoken realities of male puberty — exploring shame, sexuality, and the body through a somatic lens.
Now, in Season 2, we expand the conversation. From grief and addiction to love, longing, and emotional intimacy, we explore the evolving terrain of manhood beyond adolescence.
Through storytelling, music, and honest reflection, this podcast is a space to unshame the masculine experience — not to define what a man should be, but to uncover what it means to be fully human in a male body.
Episodes
27 episodes
[S2 Bonus Ep] I F**king Love Myself
In this season two bonus episode, I F**king Love Myself, I do something that’s not easy for me: I pause to celebrate.Instead of setting goals for the next year, I honor the harvests of 2025—the beauty, abundance, and growth alre...
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Season 2
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Episode 17
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27:25
[S2 Finale] Brotherhood Is Erotic w/ OWL
The Season 2 finale opens with my song “I Don’t Want to Be Here Anymore,” a raw reckoning with my will to die and the ongoing choice to remain.I’m joined by OWL, whose name carries a fierce truth: you have to want to be...
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Season 2
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Episode 16
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[S2 E15] What We Miss While Providing w/ Ben Raya
In this episode, Ben Raya and I explore the quiet grief at the heart of modern masculinity: the split between providing for our families and being present with them.I share my original song “Sometimes in Life I Get Called Away...
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Season 2
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Episode 15
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55:48
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[S2 E14] The Peaceful Papa w/ Ravi Rothenberg
What does it mean to be a peaceful man—and a present father—inside a world that measures worth by money, stability, and performance?In this episode, Ravi Rothenberg shares his journey of returning to his car dealership job not as a compr...
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Season 2
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Episode 14
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56:26
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[S2 E13] Turned On by the Ending: A Conversation with Relationship Death Doula Yana Rumi
In this episode, I’m joined by Relationship Death Doula Yana Rumi for a deep, honest conversation about the death of relationships—whether intentional or not—and what gets born in their wake.We explore anger and jealousy, not as emotion...
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Season 2
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Episode 13
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55:00
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[S2 E12] Enjoy the Ride w/ Yoshua Greenfield
I loved my episode with Yoshua Greenfield of You Enjoy Life homestead (https://youenjoy.life/). We are definitely soul brothers. In our convo, we talk about how Boulder people tend to over-process their emotions, and under-process m...
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Season 2
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Episode 12
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1:00:55
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[S2 E11] Part One: A Private Session w/ Hannah Aline Taylor
I sit down and receive some 1:1 personal coaching from my dear friend Hannah Aline Taylor. We talk about my enmeshment pattern in romantic relationship; how I put on other people's skins in order to protect myself from feeling the f...
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Season 2
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Episode 11
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43:56
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[S2 10] Courting the Sacred Hunt w/ John Wolfstone
In this powerful episode, John Wolfstone (https://www.thresholds.earth/facilitator-training) welcomes listeners into the heart of a men’s rite-of-passage unlike any other — “Courting the Sacred Hunt.” Drawing deeply from ancestral wisd...
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Season 2
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Episode 10
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58:50
[S2 E9] Small Cock, Soft Cock w/ Sex Coach Sam
On this episode, I welcome a new friend Sam Charles (www.samcharlescoaching.com). We share plenty of laughter as we talk about our first times masturbating, pee shyness, and trusting our animal bodies.As usual, this episode include live ...
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Season 2
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Episode 9
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56:57
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[S2 E8] Mothering Men: A Very Special Conversation with my Mom
This is a very special episode. It's the first female guest on the show! And she is my mom!!!She talks about raising 3 boys through puberty, the recent death of a lover of hers (Leo), and her practice of deeply loving and accepting men b...
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Season 2
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Episode 8
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1:27:55
[S2 E7] Not Only Privileged: Men, Addiction, and Second Puberty
In this episode we explore the hidden burdens that men carry beneath the surface of privilege. Luis Mojica (holisticlifenavigation.com) and I dive into the roots of male addiction—how the dysphoria and dysregulation of puberty can create longin...
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Season 2
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Episode 7
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1:07:35
[S2 E6] Homosensuality: The Hack for Male Loneliness
In this episode, Drew Hornbein (dddrew.com) and I open up about bisexuality, early sexual exploration, the ways men crave touch, and how intimacy between men often gets tangled with shame. We talk about cuddling in public, breaking down ...
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Season 2
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Episode 6
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1:09:37
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[S2 E5] The Somatic Cost of Screen Time
This episode is a personal and somatic reflection on how screen use has impacted my nervous system — and how it became a hidden part of my developmental trauma.I define trauma as an overwhelm of charge the body cannot digest, and ...
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Season 2
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Episode 5
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39:00
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[S2 E4] Brothers, Rupture & Repair
In this episode, I sit down with my little brother Bij for one of the most vulnerable, hilarious, and healing conversations I’ve had on this podcast.We talk about:-What it was like when Bij ended up in a relationship with someon...
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Season 2
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Episode 4
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1:14:12
[S2 E3] Walking as a Rite of Passage
At age 30, I set out on foot and walked over 220 miles from Fort Collins to Pueblo, Colorado. For two weeks, I moved through landscapes, grief, longing, and memory — and in doing so, I crossed a threshold into a deeper experience of manhood.
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Season 2
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Episode 3
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1:01:25
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[S2 E2] Back on the Grind(r)
Before Grindr, there were Craigslist M4M personal ads — and that’s where I first started chasing anonymous hookups. In this episode, I revisit my relationship to cruising apps and fast sex through a somatic lens.We explore:Ho...
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Season 2
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Episode 2
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1:10:04
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[S2 E1] Addiction Swapping: From Weed to Women
In this first episode of From Boys to Men, I open up about my journey with addiction — from smoking weed after the death of a close friend, to years of codependent relationships and love addiction. I share how grief, loss, and a lack o...
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Season 2
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Episode 1
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1:04:14
[Ep. 11] The Final Episode: My Most Shameful Story
In this deeply vulnerable episode, I share the most shameful moment of my puberty: my story of sexually assaulting someone at age 12. This is the reason I started this podcast—to confront this painful memory and unshame myself by sharing it ope...
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Season 1
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Episode 11
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45:04
[Ep. 10] Brotherhood Wounds: w/ Christoph Fink
I sit down with Christoph Fink from Radical Honesty, (www.radicalhonesty.com/christoph-fink). We talk about wanting to be "good men." We share stories of betrayal, brotherhood wounds, and times when we have been hurt by a brother.&n...
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Season 1
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Episode 10
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1:08:37
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[Ep. 9] Brotherhood Bonds: “PP to PP” w/ JP Kingston
JP Kingston (https://jpkexperience.com/) and I go deep into the unspoken layers of brotherhood—the ways men seek connection, the hunger for male nourishment, and the wounds we carry when that connection is missing. We talk about the testicu...
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Season 1
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Episode 9
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58:34
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[Ep. 8] “Straighten up a Little Bit” w/ Carlos
Carlos and I get into it—love, horniness, queerness, and all the messy, beautiful ways they intertwine. We talk about what we were taught (or not taught) about desire, how queerness reshapes the way we see intimacy, and the ways we’ve ...
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Season 1
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Episode 8
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[Ep. 7] Getting Caught, First Times & The Awkward Sex Talks w/ Keith McGuinnes
In this episode of UNCUT, we sit down with Keith from Awaken Intimacy (awakenintimacy.com). Keith shares humorous and awkward moments, from an unexpected interruption while masturbating, to h...
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Season 1
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Episode 7
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53:13
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[Ep. 6] Using Women Like I Use Porn: Avoiding my Emotions and Temporary Self-Soothing
In this episode, I take an honest look at how I’ve used both porn and women as a way to avoid my emotions and find temporary relief. I explore the somatic experience of watching porn—how its predictability creates a sense of safety and belongin...
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Season 1
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Episode 6
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26:40
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[Ep. 5] Lost, But Not Alone: Navigating Desire and Connection in Adolescence w/ Anonymous
Anonymous opens up about the untamed energy of adolescence and the deep longing for connection and desire during puberty. From navigating spontaneous surges of testosterone to seeking emotional mentorship and depth, we explore what happens when...
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Season 1
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Episode 5
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56:50
[Ep. 3] Don't Get Caught in Your Shame Spiral w/ Joseph K
Joseph and I talk about the lack of mentorship during puberty and how it shaped our understanding of intimacy and self. I share the awkward and misguided lesson my brother gave me about how to touch a woman’s clitoris—without any attunement or ...
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Season 1
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Episode 3
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