Middle Fingers Up
Welcome to Middle Fingers Up, the show where we keep our heads high and our middle fingers higher. We explore relationships, mental health and everything in between. Join me, Kiran Randhawa on the journey to learn, grow and find our voice.
Episodes
153 episodes
EP.148 - Kelly Kaur - "Be A Tiger"
Be A Tiger is an episode about what it really means to grow up as a South Asian girl who’s told to be strong… while also being told to stay quiet, stay small, and don’t make anyone uncomfortable.In this conversation with award-winning a...
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Episode 148
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EP.147 - Grief Coach Shri-"Getting Support Isn't a Weakness, It's Wisdom"
Before we get into this episode, I want to name something real: there’s a moment in life when grief meets growth. Our guest Shri lived that moment. And today, she’s helping us understand it.Grief has a way of interrupting your life—...
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EP.146 - It's Good To Gup Shup - "My Body Is Changing. My Relationship With Myself Has To Change Too.”
In this gup shup, I want to talk about something we don’t talk about enough —rebuilding our relationship with ourselves during perimenopause.Not the charts.Not the protein grams.Not the supplements or the workouts.Those ...
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Episode 146
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EP.145 - Christian Ortiz - "We Are All Imprisoned By This Damn System"
In this episode of Middle Fingers Up, I sit down with Christian Ortiz — Afro-Indigenous social scientist, technologist, and creator of Justice AIGPT — and this conversation hit me on so many levels.Christian grew up ...
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Episode 145
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EP.144 - Shagun Sharma - "Gift Your Presence, Not Just Presents”
Ever feel guilty for not feeling festive?The holidays are sold as sparkle and joy — and honestly, it starts in August the moment the gingerbread hits store shelves. The holiday decor floods every aisle...But for many of us, what f...
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Episode 144
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EP.143 - Jeff D'Silva - "You Have Skin In The Game"
This one made me laugh, pause, and think.I get to sit down and really get to know Calgary comedian and Planet Jerf host Jeff D'Silva—the stories behind his humor, how he sees the world, and the experiences that shaped him. We talk a...
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Episode 143
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1:22:17
EP.142 - It's Good To Gup Shup - "“Assimilation, Love, and What I’m Unpacking Now”
Have you ever asked yourself why so many of us first-gens ended up dating or marrying white people? I have! I see now that our immigrant parents’ survival strategies — keeping your head down, working hard, staying small — shaped our...
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Episode 142
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15:27
EP.141 - It's Good To Gup Shup With Dr.Anne Recorded LIVE - "It's Not A Flaw, It's a Flow"
Hey everyone, quick question — when was the last time you really talked about periods? Not whispered, not joked about… I mean honest, open, real talk.If that made you pause, this one’s for you — and for the men in our lives too: dads, b...
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Episode 141
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38:41
EP.140 - Shuraya Akhter Bhatti - "Confidence Really Comes When You Sit w/ Your Weakness"
You ever meet someone who reminds you that healing doesn’t always happen in therapy — sometimes it happens in the kitchen?In this episode of Middle Fingers Up, Kiran Randhawa sits down with Bengali home cook, mother, and storyteller Shu...
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Episode 140
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1:26:04
EP.139 - Mano Mishra - "Respect Your Body"
Join Kiran Randhawa as she sits down with Mano Mishra, a community leader, yoga teacher, and advocate for women’s health and immigrant voices. Mano shares her journey from Uttar Pradesh, India, to building a new life in Calgary—facing isolation...
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Episode 139
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1:12:01
EP.138 - Niké Aurea - "We All Deserve Safe Spaces"
In this episode of Middle Fingers Up, host Kiran Randhawa sits down with community consultant, speaker, and Catalyst podcast host Nike Aurea for a deep dive into what it truly means to build and belong in community—beyond conv...
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Episode 138
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1:24:00
EP.137 - Shagun Sharma - "Dismantling the Stigmas That Keep Us From Seeking Support"
Join host Kiran Randhawa on Middle Fingers Up for a heartfelt conversation with Shagun Sharma, registered psychotherapist and founder of Lotus Pathways. In this episode, Shagun shares her journey from a curious six-year-old in downtown...
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Episode 137
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1:27:04
EP.136 - Kam Bassier - "You're Not Lazy, You're Burnt Out"
In this episode of Middle Fingers Up, host Kiran Randhawa sits down with Kam Bassier—fitness and life coach, father, husband, and self-proclaimed student of life—to unpack the emotional and physical toll of burnout and the radical powe...
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Episode 136
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1:51:32
EP.135 - Kalyani Pardeshi - “Self-doubt doesn’t come from failure—it comes from negating how someone feels.”
In this episode of Middle Fingers Up, host Kiran Randhawa sits down with multi-award-winning author and speaker Kalyani Pardeshi to unpack the hidden layers of self-bullying, inner critics, and the emotional legacy of growing up in immigrant ho...
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Episode 135
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1:32:29
EP.134 - Shuraya Akhter Bhatti - "What’s in Your Tiffin? Feeding the Inner Child and Finding Balance in Parenting"
This isn’t just another parenting conversation. It’s a raw, honest look at what happens when the triggers of childhood meet the triggers of parenting.In this episode, I sit down with Shuraya Akhter Bhatti—a Bengali home cook, curry ...
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Episode 134
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1:30:22
EP.133 - It's Good To Gup Shup - "Well At Least It's Not ..."
"At Least It’s Not Worse…” — Why We Rush Gratitude and Skip Our FeelingsWe’ve all done it.Someone shares they’re struggling, and we say:“Well, at least it’s not…”But what are we actually doing when we say that?In this&nb...
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Episode 133
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17:24
EP.132 - It's Good To Gup Shup - "Why Am I So Tired? (The Hidden Cost of Carrying Everyone's Emotions)"
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve said that—“I’m so tired… but I didn’t even do that much today.” And for so many of us, especially in immigrant communities, that kind of tiredness isn’t physical—it’s emotional.It’s...
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Episode 132
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22:43
EP.131 - It's Good To Gup Shup - Dear Mental Health System: It’s Not Us, It’s You
Healing as South Asians often means navigating a mental health system shaped by whiteness — one that often fails to see us. After parting ways with a white friend who is also a therapist, I began questioning: is it that we resist help, or th...
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Episode 131
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26:58
EP.130 - It's Good To Gup Shup - " TV Raised Us, But Now We Are Finally Seeing Us"
It’s just you and me in this It’s Good To Gup Shup segment — a space for reflection, reclamation, and real talk. This episode was sparked by Sinners, a film that made me feel seen in someone else’s story. And that whisper of huge validation? It...
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Episode 130
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45:32
EP.129 - Dr. Ami - "Periods Are A Beautiful Thing"
I sit down with Dr. Ami, a holistic hormone pharmacist who’s not just a clinician — she’s lived the journey. From missed periods and persistent acne to the emotional weight of feeling dismissed, she knows firsthand what many South Asian women s...
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Episode 129
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1:16:26
EP.128 - Reshma Kearney - "Give Yourself Grace"
In this deeply moving episode, we sit with Reshma — a mother of three, widow, and mindfulness coach — as she opens up about the unimaginable loss of her husband to suicide. Together, we explore what it means to stay present in the deepest pain,...
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Episode 128
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1:22:42
EP.127 - Salima Saxton - "Come Back to You"
In this soulful and tender conversation, I sit down with Salima Saxton — relational dynamics coach, writer, performer, and co-host of the Women Are Mad podcast. Together, we unpack the quiet truths women carry — the roles we’ve played, the selv...
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Episode 127
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58:13
EP.126 - Alvina Nadeem - "Your Job Isn't To Question The Storm, Your Job Is To Make It Through It"
This week on Middle Fingers Up, we’re holding space for a powerful voice during Ovarian Cancer Awareness Day — Alvina Nadeem, a South Asian woman, mother, wife, AI innovator, keynote speaker, and cancer survivor who reminds us that survival isn...
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Episode 126
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1:47:29
EP.125 - Palak Dadwal - "You Do Not Have To Erase Your Past"
Loss is more than death — it’s the quiet grief of losing a homeland, a friendship, a relationship, trust, emotional safety, or even parts of ourselves we didn’t know we had to say goodbye to.In this powerful conversation with Palak, a Gr...
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Episode 125
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EP.124 - Aninda Sidhana - "Men of Quality Are Not Afraid of Gender Equality"
What happens when two Indian women—from different parts of the world—sit down to talk about parenting, patriarchy, and psychiatry? In this episode, I’m joined by Dr. Sidhana, a psychiatrist based in India, for a cross-continental conversation r...
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Episode 124
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1:24:56