So many women are quietly carrying a fear that runs their love life: “If I want too much, I’ll be judged or left.” We go straight into that tension, unpacking sexual shame, the pressure to stay palatable, and why self-censorship can feel safer ...

What if keeping everyone happy has been teaching your body a risky lesson: my safety depends on your approval? We dive into people pleasing not as a character flaw, but as an adaptive relationship strategy that once kept us connected and now ke...

What if great sex isn’t about getting somewhere, but about feeling everything? We share five practices that turn a frantic sprint to climax into a steady, nourishing experience that fills the whole body and brings you closer to your partner. It...

What if calm began at your feet? We guide a simple, vivid meditation that starts by relaxing the shoulders, face, and pelvic floor, then shifts awareness into the soles to create a grounded base. From there, we play with a light Qigong-inspired...

What if the feeling you’re chasing is already available in your body, quietly waiting under the noise? I share how a simple, repeatable Qigong routine—deep belly breathing, a relaxed pelvic floor, and soft, grounded feet—reshaped my days from t...

We unpack how a “full-bodied yes” standard reshaped dating, why chemistry alone can’t carry a relationship, and the courage it takes to walk away from almost-right love. We share the tools that kept us honest, regulated, and ready for a partner...

Here's what AI said this episode is about: What if the best sex of your life starts with doing less? We dive into a counterintuitive practice that swaps clenching for softening, urgency for receptivity, and a finish-line mindset for...

I have learned there are five different ways to engage with s*xual energy. I am sharing them with you here. 1. Escapism2. Trying to have an orgasm3. Pleasure and enjoyment throughout the entire experience 4. Giving...

In this video I talk about the many ways a lesson from Alexey Welsh has impacted me in the recent weeks. In short, I am learning the skill of sensitivity in sexual practice and it has been so remarkable I wanted to record a video just quic...

Is it time to reimagine sexuality as something sacred and awe-inspiring rather than just a biological function? Join me as I share my personal journey of overcoming compulsive sexual behaviors and addiction by embracing sex as a profound myster...

I respect Alexey Welsh so much. This is the second episode we have recorded together about sex. He has a truly eye-opening perspective on sex, and a great course online that I have personally used.

After a week or two of being engrossed in my work projects my partner asked me how I had been feeling about our relationship. This lead to a discussion about our different "appetites" for relationship and we both sought to understand one anothe...

I have struggled to know how to best guide myself to sexual well-being. Indulgence, or self restraint in the name of being "good". That false dichotomy split when I realized there was no top-down rule that I could apply to know how I should...

In many episodes I have shared information on the mechanisms of addiction  - so you're better equipped to face it. We have spent time looking closely at things like dopamine, habituation, and self-discipline.  (Dr. Anna Lembk...

5 reasons I don't watch porn (even when I want to)1. It makes sex about dopamine chasing 2. Real sex is better and it kills that 3. Habituation is dog shit 4. It reinforces a style of sex that I am trying to u...

This is one of the most important distinctions I have found on my way out of darkness of sex addiction. Even when I felt NOTHING during sex.. I constantly chased it down and organized my life around it. Why? Here's an AI summar...

I am practicing approaching sex from a totally different intention. In the past, sex has been all about entertainment, and chasing down an orgasm. However, a few episodes ago Alexey Walsh shared with me a different model for engaging with sex, ...

In this video, I share 4 themes of pornography and sex addiction that upon noticing them have really helped me in my personal growth. I hope that by sharing these discovers they may help you too! Four distinct themes of porn and se...

Have you ever stood at the crossroads of temptation and discipline, feeling the magnetic pull of instant gratification? This episode is about conquering that battle, as I share my intimate journey away from the grasp of pornography and towards ...

In my life, I am learning so much about how honest dialogue involves conflict. I am learning to not run from conflict, but rather use its presence in my life as an indicator that I am doing something right. 

Discover the hidden threads connecting pleasure, pain, and our coping strategies as we dissect the pleasure-pain balance in an awesome conversation with Anna Lembke! Anna is Chief of the Stanford Addiction Medicine Dual Diagnosis Clinic at Stan...

This episode, alongside  seasoned professional in conscious sexuality Alexey Welsh, brings to light the deeper dimensions of love and connection through the lens of sexual awakening. We navigate the waters of societal norms and personal ba...

Dive deep into the heart of self-awareness and relationship dynamics with us, as we unravel the enigma that is narcissism and its influence on personal boundaries. Our conversation journeys through the tricky terrain of human behavior, as we di...

This episode is a raw and intimate journey into the heart of addiction and the power of recovery. Courtney  bravely shares her harrowing battle with opiate and meth addiction, we peel back the layers of this often misunderstood and stigmat...

Imagine a world where gender roles are not just inverted but transcended, where the value of women is celebrated beyond sexualization, and where the dance of masculine and feminine energies is a harmony, not a hierarchy. Angel de Santas joins u...